I would put a foundation into that picture. A Love and a Kindness. I might be one of those incorrigible dreamers, but I still believe in those. I try to remember to love and to be kind, even when there is urge to hate. I can’t manage it sometimes…Nobody’s perfect…
I’ll add few colourful strokes of hope and faith. Not too much, coz I don’t want the picture to appear too mixed up.
In the middle of that picture will be – I. I look at my photo – I don’t like how I look on photographs…Even often I can’t believe that it is me on there. I used to see myself differently. Guess, we all do. But that’s the way human’s sensors work – eyes will see what’s on outside, hearts - inside.
I wonder if this is true, that in afterlife all souls will be free and then we will see each other “naked”. Sometimes in a moment of despair I wish that we could make this happened in our realm. But maybe then we would be scared away with what we saw…
I will paint myself the way I see me. The way I like me and the way I am – me. (hmmmm..might turn out to be not such a pretty picture after all…lol) nah – of course it’ll be Perfect!
Being there, in the middle of a picture, actually means, that despite of any thing I still have some good thoughts about myself, which is good, right? Maybe – a little selfish, but hey – you’ve got to love someone, what’s wrong if that someone is – you?!
Now – got to be careful here, as its time to smudge a bit that bubble of illusions of mine, make it paler and lighter. Don’t need too much of these anymore. Getting older brings advantage…
Well, not much left to add now – only few brush waves here and there of seriousness, flippancy, impatience, reasoning, naivety, wit and invariable fairness. A few drops of tears, perhaps and a little cute smile in the corner…Its amazes me that when it comes to say few words about yourself, suddenly all the words have gone into hiding…Am I that unfamiliar with me or just refuse to recognise certain things?
Anyway – the picture is almost ready, as it’s up to imagination of the viewer to fill in missing details. Frame this into the borders of responsibilities and – there you go – a Perfect Picture.
[hammeres in a big thick Nail and hangs the Picture. Steps back and admires for a second. Then takes it down and into recycling bin]
"If you can't be a good example, you'll have to be a terrible warning." (~Catherine Aird)
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