It happened to be a long day for me today. Friday and BeforeVacationDay. Too many things to be taken care of, too many unfinished undertakings to complete or at least – to hand over. The whole week wasn’t easy either – we had a new project, literally fallen on us as of a sudden, which supposed to be completed before the new term starts at University…It wouldn’t be too bad, if we would have a team of people sitting there, ready for whichever actions our top bosses will request. [*Or and someone to keep an eye on usual things as well]. But we have only me. And usual things don’t like it when nobody’s care for them…
It is a sad reality that most of the work we do – patching and repairing instead of reconfiguring systems to work in more effective way. There is never time for advance, only – for after. General rule – if it ain’t broken, don’t fix it. And this is how we live here. With the same dream of “Ideal Network”, where everything will just work, if nothing else… [*wistfully rolls eyes and sighs]…
So I’ve been busy and busy and busy... It was easier to do what needs to be done, then to write documentation to enable someone else to do it while I’m out of office. Looks like I’m only productive in journal writing, not manuals writing…[*perhaps, I should’ve write my instructions in MissTick style…LOL… but then there will be definitely no one who can understand them!]
Tired and exhausted and trapped in the loop of indefinite thoughts, I’ve left office after 8pm. Was driving back home after long long day, when suddenly experienced a strange “pseudo-reality”... It was late evening: darkness and almost empty road. Speed and Music and I. For one brief moment it was an illusion that I’m actually not driving anymore, but – “flying”, hovering just above the surface of the road…Weird and same time astonishing. Even closed my eyes for a millimoment to feel this sensation better…I’d love to capture it in tangible memory, so that will close my eyes and live it again and again…The magic of being estranged from this world, being on your own in parallel universe…