Fish And Self
Wed Mar 09 2005

If I’m to be a fish, then which one?

No answer. I DON’T LIKE to be a Fish. The idea of submergence on its own does not attract me at all. Perhaps, in one of my previous lives I’ve ended up drowning or something, but I tend to feel sick even imagining diving…brrrr…terrible experience. None of the underwater wonders would tempt me to give my life at mercy of a Mighty Ocean!

With the Ocean of Dreams it is the same…one need to take care diving deep without oxygen mask of reality…I’m one of those Very Careful Divers. I’ve got to feel a hand of diving instructor all the time to be sure nothing bad will happened to me…In a way this fear stands on a way of full enjoyment of the process…

Besides, there is not much joy in netting a fish for the fisherman either… You can’t tame a Fish. You can’t teach her do the tricks and you’ll never see any signs of appreciation from her anyway…

When I think of nets and catches, I think more of a terrestrial creature…of something one can take in their hands, maybe stroke to submission…feed…and become an owner of it…

The picture of something slippery, cold and wet squirming in someone’s net calls for remonstration…

We often tend to identify Self with something other then a human…an animal? I remember when I’ve been on my ever first interview for a job in IT quite a few years ago now, I’ve been almost killed by the question of a guy from Personnel Department: “if you were to be an animal, which one and why?” Little I knew then that this was a “psychological test”, I just thought the guy was nuts. But as it was my first interview ever (actually, the last one as well, as I’ve got this job anyway), I’ve played it seriously and after few seconds of confusion, came up with the choice of a Cat…and the reason – She always lands on her feet, when she falls…I think, that was subconscious prompt of my mind, as it appeared later in a life – landing onto feet has always worked...

Hmmmm...what a strange entry today caused by a weird thought...surprised at myself...

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Of course I will bring a lot of pictures! After discovering that for video equipment we’d need to pay a fee on entering the country, we’ve decided to leave video at home. But of course I would never part with my beloved digital camera (and it is good enough)! So expect full scale report in April. (if I ever make it back, that is ;-) just kidding LOL )

Time is T-I-C-K-I-N-G



3 Comments
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Mar 09 2005
    I am just the opposite. Once I learned to dive in the deep end. ..... You couldn't keep me out of it.. I could do backwards jackknifes and twists and all kinds of fancy dives. Now that was pre-puberty.. Since my childbearing days .. Well, I will dive in, but I don't do my tricks. Fact of the matter I haven't had on a swim suit in a few years!!

    I don't like catching fish much. I don't like eating them or cleaning them and I don't really enjoy killing any creature. Even spiders.. So.. But.. Dive into the dark night.. to dream.. my idea of joy..

    And I just love your rendezvous with the pharaoh
    How clever you are

  • From:
    Ichandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Mar 10 2005
    oh Miss Tick
    stroked into submission
    I LOVE IT GIRL!
    I love it so much I even gave you an exclamation point
    instead of cat you should of said tiger and said if I dont get this job I will eat you up
    have a great day my friend
    love and lightning
    ichandra
  • From:
    Ichandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Mar 11 2005
    yes thankyou send me your packing fairy when you are done
    from what I recall you will be off to the pyramids we will enjoy hearing about that