So here I was. Wanted to write a nice entry about my day. About how I’m having relatively quiet day in the office (*knocks on the wood) how I’ve read 8 chapters of Pastwatch – Orson Card’s book, I’ve got as a gift, about how I’ve scored 5.11 min in me v. me personal competition in Mahjong (and this is very good record for me, as the previous one was 7 min with something, so I’m winning, yeah!) so, I wanted to write about all this peaceful daily routine, when it’s happened again. I mean – thoughts do come to mind when they feel like it, and since it is my mind and my thoughts, what can I do? So I’ve been thinking today…and it was about Pride.
“We are rarely proud when we are alone.” [Voltair ]
Don’t you find this to be so true? I do. What could be better then pride in building self-confidence, what could be worse then pride in damaging relationships? And yet it is most difficult to feel proud when assessing personal achievements and it is most hard to hide away your pride when dealing with others. Why it should be all backwards, I wonder? I mean shouldn’t it be opposite way? Is there such thing as “positive” pride? Or – positive side of her? Like in mathematics – negative and positive numbers. The same value, but on the other side of the Zero. And then all depends on which absolute value is higher.
I’m thinking…what is pride for me? Is it helping me or standing on my way? For every more or less significant moment of my life, when I felt being proud of self in positive way, there would be other moments, when I hated being too proud, yet still I was. At the moment I’m under impression that my pride is somewhat more negative then I’d like it to be. Yet I know there were times when it was pride for what I’ve accomplished, that pushed to accomplish even more, so it was a positive side of it. Is it all – about eternal question of balance again? Or should pride be referred as a sin in general (as it does in Bible) and should we all strive to eliminate it? Is it good – to have pride? And if it is, why then do we need to struggle with her all the time?
“We are rarely proud when we are alone.” [Voltair ]
Don’t you find this to be so true? I do. What could be better then pride in building self-confidence, what could be worse then pride in damaging relationships? And yet it is most difficult to feel proud when assessing personal achievements and it is most hard to hide away your pride when dealing with others. Why it should be all backwards, I wonder? I mean shouldn’t it be opposite way? Is there such thing as “positive” pride? Or – positive side of her? Like in mathematics – negative and positive numbers. The same value, but on the other side of the Zero. And then all depends on which absolute value is higher.
I’m thinking…what is pride for me? Is it helping me or standing on my way? For every more or less significant moment of my life, when I felt being proud of self in positive way, there would be other moments, when I hated being too proud, yet still I was. At the moment I’m under impression that my pride is somewhat more negative then I’d like it to be. Yet I know there were times when it was pride for what I’ve accomplished, that pushed to accomplish even more, so it was a positive side of it. Is it all – about eternal question of balance again? Or should pride be referred as a sin in general (as it does in Bible) and should we all strive to eliminate it? Is it good – to have pride? And if it is, why then do we need to struggle with her all the time?