Last night I planned on sleeping in a little today, I even set my alarms for around noon. I woke up before 8! I feel so good and so awake and by the time my millions of alarms started ringing I had already gotten up, packed laundry and stuff in the car, picked out outfits, woke the girls up, fed us all breakfast, went and got gas and cigarettes, went to the bank, paid a bill, went to a store and bought chairs for our balcony and a birthday present for a friend's daughter on Sunday and a new appointment book, and got to grammy and papaws house to work on some laundry. Oh, and I packed lunch for us which we ate shortly after my alarms stopped :)
Last Monday I flew to DC from Ohio to participate in lobbying for a bill to get passed into a law for eating disorders. I met a lot of cool people there, professionals, victims of ED's, and people advocating for loved ones. I met a congressman, and a friend of a teammate that worked in the offices and snuck us into a tunnel! I finally got to meet someone face to face that I was looking forward to meeting, someone who once almost comitted suicide because of ED. She's alive and recovered and amazing.
I have been getting so busy around here that I have been wanting to scream LEAVE ME ALONE to the world, but yet I know that staying busy and productive helps me thrive and get through my life most of the time. I had gotten sick with a uti and then a cold, my daughter had an ear infection, I had to go clean two homes for family and extra money over the course of four different days, I have had church, counseling, a bday party, getting my hair done, going grocery shopping with family, et cetera. I have been so worn out, but feel like I have been accomplishing a lot, too. Not to mention printing up itenararies, packing, and just all the other every day stuff!
Last night I had a dream. I was walking somewhere and a cop picked me up, and he said it was for me standing outside of a public place smoking a joint. I couldn't deny it, my face showed the truth and he smiled this creepy smile and then he said "here's what we are going to do. Now, bend over and get into position." I screamed F no and he laughed and let me go! Weird. Next I am going to a therapy session and for some reason she seemed extra laid back and like she had all the time in the world. I even left her office for a long period of time and then went back, and she was still just sitting there like she lived there and had all the time in the world. Right away when I got back she told me that I was going to have to talk about my smoking and wait to have a mental health session. I was hanging my head, ashamed. She was very stern with me and said stuff like how I won't even try, and she just doesn't know what she's going to do with me. I can't remember all the details anymore but it was a pretty surreal dream for the most part, and I woke up glad that I haven't almost been arrested or raped and in a weird long therapy session!
That's it for now, I have one more meal to get through today, bunches of loads of laundry, and hopefully I will have time to take my girlies to this indoor water park we have passes for that's not far from here. Tomorrow morning we have to wake up and go to church for a practice for their program on Sunday, and that's all that we have to do tomorrow. More later!