**********2nd Month Anniversary**********
6/2/02
Well, Let's see, I'll just bet there is a ton of things to catch up on! My b/f, Chuck, I met him 3 years ago at a youth group party, well, lock in. April 2nd, of this year, I took some syrup of ipecac for the first time and got violently sick, but after taking like a five hour nap I was fine, and was "well" enough to go meet Chuck at this bowling alley. I felt at ease with him as soon as I met him, or got reunited with him. Now I feel comfortable with him alltogether and I feel this closeness with him that I never remember actually feeling with other boyfriends, this connection. It's weird, how can I try to explain this? See, at my junior prom this past year, let's just say that while dancing, our bodies fit perfectly with each other. My backside in his stomach. Ok, ok, so I can only freak dance a little, and slow dance and line dance more. So what! We had a great time:) .
Today and for like the last part of the last month with Chuck, it has been seeming to get too comfortable, like, when we are both at this apartment with a group of friends of both of ours, he'll look at me and say, gently suggesting, Mary, come here and give me a kiss. I'll kiss him, maybe sit on his lap, and I'll ask a question, or try to talk to him or something, he'll tell like, yeaterday.
From an earlier experience, I asked him to please talk with me about what we wanted to do for our 2nd month anniversary, and all he did was shrug, say, I dunno, and then a friend started talking to him while I was suggesting things that we could do, he turned around, put that give me a minute sign in my face, and talked to the friend. He cutt me off with something related to us, very rudely, pissed me off, thenm when I called him on it, I told him I was pissed, he said that the friend was trying to talk to him first and I said oh, no, i was talking to you, not with you like as girl/boyfriend we should have been doing, And he interrupted us. Instead of telling him hang on, you turned around, and you pissed me off. I hate how he does it, I'm verty sensitive and observant, so I notice most little things, but right away when you mention them, he has a blank, confused face on, saying I dunno and making excuses up!
Our earlier experience I mentioned was once when this BI*C* got in the way of something very important for us, well, she was damn close to it, that was one of these monthly anniversaries and by the way, Chuck is the one that talks about these things coming up, I just pay attention to them now because I thought they were important to him, and that made it important to myself. Well, anyway, as soon as I got mad a couple of days later and mentioned it, because almost the same thing was going to happen again, Chuck said, well, you ended up babysitting that night, and I was going to take you to the movies for our anniversary. Guess who had no idea at 9-10 o'clock she was supposed to even be going anywhere with her bf that night? you guessed it. Why if I knew I was going out with him would I end up babysitting? And he hasn't called me all day or anything, and he hasn't spent anytime with just me, even for like 10 minutes in a while, yet when he wants, he thinks this is my woman, I'm a good boyfriend. I need some of the TLC I give him. He's not going to be my boyfriend whenever he feels like it, and he has no idea, but from today, till July 2, (day after his birthday) he's on trial. I'm actually going to keep track of things like how he acts around me, the few minutes in this month he'll spend any time with me, excuses he'll make, words he'll put in my mouth, and accusations, he's always right you know, I'm always to blame,... So, read along, I'll try to keep track everyday in here of it. He doesn't seem to realize I don't need to hang on to/with him, unless he get's to be worth it again. I'm fuming just writing about this and recalling, I don't need to be treated like this from someone I love and care about, and I WON'T.
What do you think about this? Anything else I should try with him????? Write an let me know, please!!!
6/2/02
Well, Let's see, I'll just bet there is a ton of things to catch up on! My b/f, Chuck, I met him 3 years ago at a youth group party, well, lock in. April 2nd, of this year, I took some syrup of ipecac for the first time and got violently sick, but after taking like a five hour nap I was fine, and was "well" enough to go meet Chuck at this bowling alley. I felt at ease with him as soon as I met him, or got reunited with him. Now I feel comfortable with him alltogether and I feel this closeness with him that I never remember actually feeling with other boyfriends, this connection. It's weird, how can I try to explain this? See, at my junior prom this past year, let's just say that while dancing, our bodies fit perfectly with each other. My backside in his stomach. Ok, ok, so I can only freak dance a little, and slow dance and line dance more. So what! We had a great time:) .
Today and for like the last part of the last month with Chuck, it has been seeming to get too comfortable, like, when we are both at this apartment with a group of friends of both of ours, he'll look at me and say, gently suggesting, Mary, come here and give me a kiss. I'll kiss him, maybe sit on his lap, and I'll ask a question, or try to talk to him or something, he'll tell like, yeaterday.
From an earlier experience, I asked him to please talk with me about what we wanted to do for our 2nd month anniversary, and all he did was shrug, say, I dunno, and then a friend started talking to him while I was suggesting things that we could do, he turned around, put that give me a minute sign in my face, and talked to the friend. He cutt me off with something related to us, very rudely, pissed me off, thenm when I called him on it, I told him I was pissed, he said that the friend was trying to talk to him first and I said oh, no, i was talking to you, not with you like as girl/boyfriend we should have been doing, And he interrupted us. Instead of telling him hang on, you turned around, and you pissed me off. I hate how he does it, I'm verty sensitive and observant, so I notice most little things, but right away when you mention them, he has a blank, confused face on, saying I dunno and making excuses up!
Our earlier experience I mentioned was once when this BI*C* got in the way of something very important for us, well, she was damn close to it, that was one of these monthly anniversaries and by the way, Chuck is the one that talks about these things coming up, I just pay attention to them now because I thought they were important to him, and that made it important to myself. Well, anyway, as soon as I got mad a couple of days later and mentioned it, because almost the same thing was going to happen again, Chuck said, well, you ended up babysitting that night, and I was going to take you to the movies for our anniversary. Guess who had no idea at 9-10 o'clock she was supposed to even be going anywhere with her bf that night? you guessed it. Why if I knew I was going out with him would I end up babysitting? And he hasn't called me all day or anything, and he hasn't spent anytime with just me, even for like 10 minutes in a while, yet when he wants, he thinks this is my woman, I'm a good boyfriend. I need some of the TLC I give him. He's not going to be my boyfriend whenever he feels like it, and he has no idea, but from today, till July 2, (day after his birthday) he's on trial. I'm actually going to keep track of things like how he acts around me, the few minutes in this month he'll spend any time with me, excuses he'll make, words he'll put in my mouth, and accusations, he's always right you know, I'm always to blame,... So, read along, I'll try to keep track everyday in here of it. He doesn't seem to realize I don't need to hang on to/with him, unless he get's to be worth it again. I'm fuming just writing about this and recalling, I don't need to be treated like this from someone I love and care about, and I WON'T.
What do you think about this? Anything else I should try with him????? Write an let me know, please!!!