Yes, I have had a last few really nice days!!!
I feel so good, and today I ate without purging, at lunchtime at school I got a snadwich and took it to the nurses office, I was allowed to without a pass because I finally managed to take the white lab coat out the door with me, see, I always pretend I'm going to to make the nurse laugh, and today I started walking out, waiting for her to notice it on me, laughing even, then I left, and she had no idea till I showed it to a security guard and got to go "return" it to her. But anyway, I ate in there for a little privacy and I notiiced that she was staring at me at one point while I was gobbling the sandwich up slowly, but like a hungry pig, and so I put the sandwich down and she just said it's so good to see you eating, and something weird happened, I realized that she wasn't making me feel like a pig eating, but some normal person doing something that other people do normally. It was like I was putting on a persona though, like impersonating a normal, healthy person eating a sandwich at lunchtime because they're hungry, and giving theirselves some energy for the rest of the day, and usually they go home and eat a nice dinner with family or froiends and they talk, laugh, fill their stomachs and have a nice time.
Yesterday with my dad and sister Teri, we stopped at a burger king to eat dinner. A man that used to work at Ford where my dad works, he came in and I caught the last part of their conversation, he sat with us in my chair whiile I was getting napkins and catshups and stuff, he told my dad, I only wanted it for a pack of ciggerettes, and I figured out that he was talking about borrowing money from him, and dad said no. He did give him some ciggs, though. I offered him my sandwich and some fries, while I sipped on a diet coke and he said no. He was dirty, smelled, and his shirt was small and tight, showed a huge belly. He made me feel realy uncomforatble, when he finally left, I couldn't sit in the chair that he sat in and I couldn't eat although I was hungry, and dad told us his story.
Years ago, this guy, we'll call V, he worked like as a janitor at fords and he was seriously into dope and stuff. One day he got fired. Ever since he has walked to all of these places, like rest. and tried to bum money and ciggs and food and drinks from people. People have left places seeing that he was coming in, and he pretty much expects to live off the victims, kind and generous people. He treated dad bad, earlier in those days dad loaned him $20 and never got it back, and so dad will not trust him ever again.
Well, I'm having a really nice time with working at wendys now, and I have a busy week, we have pro. tests all week, which take up like two bells, so whomever doesn''t need to make any up get to pretty much sleep, like today for the writing test I didn't have to make it up so I brought a pillow in and slept and then woke up drooling in my first bell class.
We have some kind of guest speaker coming in for ROTC on wed. so we'll be wearing our uniforms then, and also we will have our rotc pictures taken on this friday, so I have to wear mine again! I don't mind, I've been waiting for it.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Gotta go and get some sleep, so Take Care!!! Love, ME :)
I feel so good, and today I ate without purging, at lunchtime at school I got a snadwich and took it to the nurses office, I was allowed to without a pass because I finally managed to take the white lab coat out the door with me, see, I always pretend I'm going to to make the nurse laugh, and today I started walking out, waiting for her to notice it on me, laughing even, then I left, and she had no idea till I showed it to a security guard and got to go "return" it to her. But anyway, I ate in there for a little privacy and I notiiced that she was staring at me at one point while I was gobbling the sandwich up slowly, but like a hungry pig, and so I put the sandwich down and she just said it's so good to see you eating, and something weird happened, I realized that she wasn't making me feel like a pig eating, but some normal person doing something that other people do normally. It was like I was putting on a persona though, like impersonating a normal, healthy person eating a sandwich at lunchtime because they're hungry, and giving theirselves some energy for the rest of the day, and usually they go home and eat a nice dinner with family or froiends and they talk, laugh, fill their stomachs and have a nice time.
Yesterday with my dad and sister Teri, we stopped at a burger king to eat dinner. A man that used to work at Ford where my dad works, he came in and I caught the last part of their conversation, he sat with us in my chair whiile I was getting napkins and catshups and stuff, he told my dad, I only wanted it for a pack of ciggerettes, and I figured out that he was talking about borrowing money from him, and dad said no. He did give him some ciggs, though. I offered him my sandwich and some fries, while I sipped on a diet coke and he said no. He was dirty, smelled, and his shirt was small and tight, showed a huge belly. He made me feel realy uncomforatble, when he finally left, I couldn't sit in the chair that he sat in and I couldn't eat although I was hungry, and dad told us his story.
Years ago, this guy, we'll call V, he worked like as a janitor at fords and he was seriously into dope and stuff. One day he got fired. Ever since he has walked to all of these places, like rest. and tried to bum money and ciggs and food and drinks from people. People have left places seeing that he was coming in, and he pretty much expects to live off the victims, kind and generous people. He treated dad bad, earlier in those days dad loaned him $20 and never got it back, and so dad will not trust him ever again.
Well, I'm having a really nice time with working at wendys now, and I have a busy week, we have pro. tests all week, which take up like two bells, so whomever doesn''t need to make any up get to pretty much sleep, like today for the writing test I didn't have to make it up so I brought a pillow in and slept and then woke up drooling in my first bell class.
We have some kind of guest speaker coming in for ROTC on wed. so we'll be wearing our uniforms then, and also we will have our rotc pictures taken on this friday, so I have to wear mine again! I don't mind, I've been waiting for it.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Gotta go and get some sleep, so Take Care!!! Love, ME :)