Today is my moms 43rd birthday I think, (good thing she doesn't even know I have a diary on here much less reads it, in case I'm wrong ;-) ) but she's out celebrating, of course she's on the boat! (gambling)
I was a little late to school today, 3 minutes to be exact because the power went off, Teri didn't wake up to her alarm, and she normally wakes me up, so I didn't wake up either, we called dad and he came, but there was also a train. The last day for school is Thursday, so what are they going to do? Give us detentions??? I also left early, I had dad come and get me again, because I slept after adding stickers to my newest journal, one I wrote the first entry in here, from the first day I went to the crisis respite, May 9th, and then I fell alseep on the bleachers, we're not swimming anymore :(
Then I had my piano lab exam, I could've done better with more practice when playing my selected classical piece, minuet, but I was da bomb with the written part, I have this theory book and have wasn't even there to learn about triads and the v7 chord and other stuff like that, but I read the directions and looked at the examples and realized if I thought too hard I would screw up on it, so I did fine.
Then I got really bored, because my last few hours there today would havve been sitting in my study hall bored to death, I really thought about skipping, but then decided to stop by our attendance office, and I asked the lady, who by the way is pretty nice, she also seems to understand certain things, like I didn't want to show a kid attendance officer worker my doctors note that mentioned by being away for the two weeks because of mental health issues, so I waited for a lady there and she saw my name on a has- been-absent-for-way-too-many-times list and wasn't siure if my note was really valid or not, and was going to give me an unexcused, I desp. asked for her to show it to the lady in charge and she either just trusted me, didn't care or has found out about where I was already, and so I was free. The other lady was just doing her job, though.
I think that the only reason I was so dizzy at church was because I haven't slept at all the night before, litterally. The one night I forgot my medicine. I was busy on memorial day, though!
I had three babies, all 2 and under. I was ok, i walked them over to a mcdonaldsand I held the baby, baby bag, and the 2 older ones held hands, and when crossing the street I waited and msanaged to hold on to them, too, and mostly they listened, except when I went to an atm machine, the girls had wondered away, I saw this car pullling up, screamed, almost dropped the baby, managed to hold everyone and everything in my arms, yelled, girls, get over here RIGHT NOW. They did!!! I hated using my voice with them, but mostly I hated myself for not watching them better, it only takes one minute,....
We went to mcdonalds, sat them all in high chairs and gave them nugget kids meals. when they were done after not eating much, I ate really fast before letting them out to play at the playground, because I couldn't eat when they were, I was too busy picking up the bottle L decided was facsinating to keep dropping, keeping the older ones strapped an inside their chairs, feeding C sdo she would eat, et cetera. I now know why it's hard for a mother to do many things for herself with kids, esp. more then 1 around! The playground was so nice, we stayed for a couple of hours, they were having fun playing and I was in the same area with them, watching but also I could concentrate on the baby more there. Which meant I had a lot of time to pick the bottle up, mix a new formula after I figured out that water was what I used for it (lucky guess) and naturally, pick the bottle up a lot. I also talked to someone who wants me to babysit sometime for his 6 year old son. He also wanted to talk to someone about his seperation, and other stuff. I had a tough time kepping the kids together in the bathroom, I had to change each one before we left, while I was changing L, strapped to the thing, the older ones were messing with the t.p. and the air blow dryers. After I changed A's, I pretty much rushed them outside, I was about to lose my lunch from the smell!!! The little lunch I rushed into myself out of hunger.
Ow, I just called the crisi respite to talk to a friend from there, and my favorite staff member answered, said she was bus6, and said did you know that we can't let you talk to her because you're not on her phone list? I said that I thought about that at first, but then everyone kept letting me talk to her, so I figured it was ok. he told me to try to talk to her more when she get's home, and I said ok, and then she said take care sweetheart. I said ok, you too, bye. When people say things like that I feel well, I'm not sure how to explain it but how I started it, ouch. Well, I won't fret over it, I think what I'll do is call her mom at home, I need to anyway, to ask if I can be put on her phone list now and also ask about her going to explorers tomorrow with me. I wish I can talk to the girl first, but no,... wow, I'm finally checking 8 messages on the voice mail, got the first ones, my Grandma called a few times to check on me while out at Mcdonalds, and mom from the hotel at the boat, 3rd from memaw, 1 from c's mom, one from my mom, one for cilla, she never leaves a message, 1 for mom from a friend wishing her a happy b day,... someone else I'
ve never heard of to wish her a happy bday,... ok, I feel better, yet I feel kind of like a sneak, but sometimes you do what you've gotta do, I caled her mom, talked to her, she was glad to hear from me and they live really close so we're planning on getting togeter, like me and A going to each others houses, and the moms meeting each other, the only bad thing is I may be going to a foster care where they won't let me,... Her mom is going to call and add me to the phone list and leave my number with them so that she can call me, and oif she doesn't, like I told her mom,.. I'll be calling her,... :) she laughed and said sounds good to me. I also told her a little bit about why I was in there, I didn't mind, moatly I wanted to tell her I'm not a bad kid that would be wrong around her daughter, she asked some normal parent qurstions like do I do drugs or drink? I told her that I have done them but I don't have a problem with them, at least not yet, she said mar-ry! when asked if I still smoked cigarettes,.... et cetera. Phewwww,.... now I hope that they don't mind me legally calling,... I'm too sensitive. I think that tonight I'll wait to see if she'll call me, and then if not, call her tomorrow and explain that I asked her mom about the phone list tonight. Like my memaw says, it'll all work out in the wash, which s what I've been doing a lot today, laundry YUCK.
I'm going to make a card, and clean up really extra special for my own skae and moms b dau, so she'll come back to a sparkling house, make dinner tonight, I'm kind of watching Cilla right now, who is palying at a friends but checking in every half hou, her dad already said she could go, he's taking Delores to some places,... et cetera. I say that a lot, and for some reason I always have to say et cetera, instead of etc now. I'm going to write another entry for this from my journal, to share about a day at the crisis repsite and also have oit on here to keep forever,... Oh, first I saw Steve again today, we took a long walk at a park and talked, I feel good about foster care, reassured about everything as much as I could be. :) Still don't have many answeres yet, but I can visulize it a little better now!
I was a little late to school today, 3 minutes to be exact because the power went off, Teri didn't wake up to her alarm, and she normally wakes me up, so I didn't wake up either, we called dad and he came, but there was also a train. The last day for school is Thursday, so what are they going to do? Give us detentions??? I also left early, I had dad come and get me again, because I slept after adding stickers to my newest journal, one I wrote the first entry in here, from the first day I went to the crisis respite, May 9th, and then I fell alseep on the bleachers, we're not swimming anymore :(
Then I had my piano lab exam, I could've done better with more practice when playing my selected classical piece, minuet, but I was da bomb with the written part, I have this theory book and have wasn't even there to learn about triads and the v7 chord and other stuff like that, but I read the directions and looked at the examples and realized if I thought too hard I would screw up on it, so I did fine.
Then I got really bored, because my last few hours there today would havve been sitting in my study hall bored to death, I really thought about skipping, but then decided to stop by our attendance office, and I asked the lady, who by the way is pretty nice, she also seems to understand certain things, like I didn't want to show a kid attendance officer worker my doctors note that mentioned by being away for the two weeks because of mental health issues, so I waited for a lady there and she saw my name on a has- been-absent-for-way-too-many-times list and wasn't siure if my note was really valid or not, and was going to give me an unexcused, I desp. asked for her to show it to the lady in charge and she either just trusted me, didn't care or has found out about where I was already, and so I was free. The other lady was just doing her job, though.
I think that the only reason I was so dizzy at church was because I haven't slept at all the night before, litterally. The one night I forgot my medicine. I was busy on memorial day, though!
I had three babies, all 2 and under. I was ok, i walked them over to a mcdonaldsand I held the baby, baby bag, and the 2 older ones held hands, and when crossing the street I waited and msanaged to hold on to them, too, and mostly they listened, except when I went to an atm machine, the girls had wondered away, I saw this car pullling up, screamed, almost dropped the baby, managed to hold everyone and everything in my arms, yelled, girls, get over here RIGHT NOW. They did!!! I hated using my voice with them, but mostly I hated myself for not watching them better, it only takes one minute,....
We went to mcdonalds, sat them all in high chairs and gave them nugget kids meals. when they were done after not eating much, I ate really fast before letting them out to play at the playground, because I couldn't eat when they were, I was too busy picking up the bottle L decided was facsinating to keep dropping, keeping the older ones strapped an inside their chairs, feeding C sdo she would eat, et cetera. I now know why it's hard for a mother to do many things for herself with kids, esp. more then 1 around! The playground was so nice, we stayed for a couple of hours, they were having fun playing and I was in the same area with them, watching but also I could concentrate on the baby more there. Which meant I had a lot of time to pick the bottle up, mix a new formula after I figured out that water was what I used for it (lucky guess) and naturally, pick the bottle up a lot. I also talked to someone who wants me to babysit sometime for his 6 year old son. He also wanted to talk to someone about his seperation, and other stuff. I had a tough time kepping the kids together in the bathroom, I had to change each one before we left, while I was changing L, strapped to the thing, the older ones were messing with the t.p. and the air blow dryers. After I changed A's, I pretty much rushed them outside, I was about to lose my lunch from the smell!!! The little lunch I rushed into myself out of hunger.
Ow, I just called the crisi respite to talk to a friend from there, and my favorite staff member answered, said she was bus6, and said did you know that we can't let you talk to her because you're not on her phone list? I said that I thought about that at first, but then everyone kept letting me talk to her, so I figured it was ok. he told me to try to talk to her more when she get's home, and I said ok, and then she said take care sweetheart. I said ok, you too, bye. When people say things like that I feel well, I'm not sure how to explain it but how I started it, ouch. Well, I won't fret over it, I think what I'll do is call her mom at home, I need to anyway, to ask if I can be put on her phone list now and also ask about her going to explorers tomorrow with me. I wish I can talk to the girl first, but no,... wow, I'm finally checking 8 messages on the voice mail, got the first ones, my Grandma called a few times to check on me while out at Mcdonalds, and mom from the hotel at the boat, 3rd from memaw, 1 from c's mom, one from my mom, one for cilla, she never leaves a message, 1 for mom from a friend wishing her a happy b day,... someone else I'
ve never heard of to wish her a happy bday,... ok, I feel better, yet I feel kind of like a sneak, but sometimes you do what you've gotta do, I caled her mom, talked to her, she was glad to hear from me and they live really close so we're planning on getting togeter, like me and A going to each others houses, and the moms meeting each other, the only bad thing is I may be going to a foster care where they won't let me,... Her mom is going to call and add me to the phone list and leave my number with them so that she can call me, and oif she doesn't, like I told her mom,.. I'll be calling her,... :) she laughed and said sounds good to me. I also told her a little bit about why I was in there, I didn't mind, moatly I wanted to tell her I'm not a bad kid that would be wrong around her daughter, she asked some normal parent qurstions like do I do drugs or drink? I told her that I have done them but I don't have a problem with them, at least not yet, she said mar-ry! when asked if I still smoked cigarettes,.... et cetera. Phewwww,.... now I hope that they don't mind me legally calling,... I'm too sensitive. I think that tonight I'll wait to see if she'll call me, and then if not, call her tomorrow and explain that I asked her mom about the phone list tonight. Like my memaw says, it'll all work out in the wash, which s what I've been doing a lot today, laundry YUCK.
I'm going to make a card, and clean up really extra special for my own skae and moms b dau, so she'll come back to a sparkling house, make dinner tonight, I'm kind of watching Cilla right now, who is palying at a friends but checking in every half hou, her dad already said she could go, he's taking Delores to some places,... et cetera. I say that a lot, and for some reason I always have to say et cetera, instead of etc now. I'm going to write another entry for this from my journal, to share about a day at the crisis repsite and also have oit on here to keep forever,... Oh, first I saw Steve again today, we took a long walk at a park and talked, I feel good about foster care, reassured about everything as much as I could be. :) Still don't have many answeres yet, but I can visulize it a little better now!