D'vorahDavida
Yetzirah

I've had a frazzly day today. It was good…. but, well…. frazzly. Been out and about to the county seat to obtain groceries and do several other errands. I was going to go into detail about it, but realized it involves actually thinking and writing about the future, and suddenly, I couldn't do it. I have this phobia about talking about things that I am planning to do, but feel uncertain about. And boy, I DO feel a lot of uncertainty in my life right now. I'm taking nothing for granted. I can't. It gives me the heebie jeebies. I did deliver the Big Bertha market bag. The lady who commissioned it was very happy with it. And even though it took so long to make and was sort of scary to look at before felting, I'm actually considering starting a new one! I figure someone else would probably like a shopping bag that is out of the common way. I have quite a bit of navy blue yarn that was given to me by a friend that I think would work just dandy. I've stacked more wood and helped my soon to be… [yikes! the future!] landlord construct a dog pen area for Ben and Sunny. It's very nice, I think they will like it. While he was digging a big posthole, I gathered some odd pieces of firewood that were stacked here and there from tree trimmings and whatnot. Enough to last a week I bet! There's still more to gather under an oak tree that lost a limb in a storm last year I think. I'll work on that next time I go up. I cannot express how almost magically therapeutic it is to do plain honest work like this. It makes the other crazy parts of my life fade into the background for a while. I'm so grateful for the respite it provides. There's a Zen proverb: "Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water." I think I may be getting in touch with the chop wood part of it…. now if I could just get to the enlightenment part. (Don't press your luck there Cupcake.) I thought you were going to be nice to me. (I AM being nice.) I suppose considering the source, I would have to agree. (Smart Cupcake. Not enlightened yet, but pretty smart.) Gee, thanks. (You're welcome.)