My next incarnation.
Actually, just a change of the facade. The Book is still the same, only the cover changed...I said that and then I realised that this is not quite true. Since I've opened this Diary for the first time, my views on life, on writing, on this place, they all have changed too. There were times when I felt almost guilty for not writing an entry here, like I've spent a day without finding anything in it worthy to share. The sharing since has changed its value to me. Long story, perhaps, the whole story of my life, that led to this and not to something else instead.
I went to my very first entry here and realised that all that I have said about myself back then, is no longer relevant to me. Such is reality, people do change.
I’m no longer the one, who thinks a lot and writes those thoughts whenever finds a spare minute...I do think of course. A lot. I don't have that many spare minutes nowadays. And perhaps, neither do I have an inspiration to pin my thoughts in solid form.
I do not ask a lot of questions. I find that more often then not, I do not wish to know the answer. Certain knowing can be disturbing to the peace of mind and peace of mind is what I now value above it all.
As much as I still do love logic, I am not particularly concerned if there isn't one. I find the vague and obscure comfortable places to be, just as well.
I used to put my own thoughts in other ppl’s mouth and assume that’s –what they meant to say. I understand now that we cannot control others, only our own reaction to them. Applying it to reality made my life so much easier, I am happy with this part of change.
Perhaps, the only thing that came out true all the way from The Begining, is this: back in 2004 I wrote: "My new credo – “Things Are As They Are”. Accepting is my Ultimate Target. We’ll see how I’ll get there (if I will)" ... I can now proudly announce - I am here, where I wanted to be. And, trust me, acceptance is not a bad skill to have, it certainly helps to face life's challenges.
So, here we are, at the begining of yet another Chapter. Life Number Three. Let's see where would she take us.