Eternal Question Of Trust
Mon Jan 03 2005

The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple. [Oscar Wilde]

It’s time for a serious thought today for a change. Am feeling a bit philosophical here. What I wonder today - why instead of trusting others and let others trust, we assume beforehand that we will be misunderstood? Why we don’t tell what we want others to know, but get them to separate the truth from bollocks for themselves? With more likely incorrect results, of course? Frustrated we are from the rubbish, hence all the bollocks indeed…

"You are all things. Denying, rejecting, judging or hiding from any aspect of your total being creates pain and results in a lack of wholeness."

Words can mean nothing, yet give as much answers as one needed. We all hear what we want to hear and not listening to the obvious. If I’ll be told: trust me, this is – how it is, my first impulse would be – I should check for myself first. I’m often guilty in listening to the first syllable and making up the rest in my imagination. And that Rest would most likely be of some negative nature. I know I do this a lot. Yet even knowing, next time I listen to someone – its all just the same.

Is it stubbornness of mine or unwillingness to believe someone other then self? Lack of trust, perhaps? Or unbelief in self- worthiness of being told the truth?

What makes us imagining things that not good from our perspective? Like in the saying: lets plan for something bad – this way we’ll be more happy if it won’t happened?...Only it seems that when you always expect the worst, the worst will always come…

Sometimes I think, I’m too much in awareness of all the worst things. I imagine myself as a passenger getting ready to board the plane and thinking of plane crashes, natural disasters, neighbour in next seat snoring for 3 hours of a flight or a friend, failed to meet in the airport. When all I need to think – of a pleasant time awaiting me at my destination.

Am I a pessimist or just an over-precautious?

2 Comments
  • From:
    Bubbles1956 (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 04 2005
    Why label yourself? If you know you look for the bad, and it bothers you, change your pattern. I go wish instincts as often as I can. If I hve the guts to actually get on the plane, I bring a head set so I can listen to my favorite music and not hear the snoring, lol. If the plane is going to crash, I can't do a darn thing about once we are in the air, so I just listen to my music and try to sleep. I don't look for the worst in a person. I think we all have a good and not so good side. I think if we try not to judge each other, we will be able so see more of who they show of themselves and enjoy them for who they are, to us. I will admit, when someone tells me that I am missing something or that I did not get the meaning and I ask what it was I missed and they don't tell me, that BOTHERS the heck out of me, lol.
  • From:
    Labyrinth (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 04 2005
    thumbs up, miss tick. this is one of the best entries i read here. very like me. lol. did u know some had suspected that u and me are one and the same person becuz of the things you write? lol.

    ori:)