Waiting Rooms
Mon Jan 23 2006

"I had a friend once who told me that the worst mistake that you can make is to think that you are alive, when really you're asleep in life's waiting room. The trick is to combine your waking, rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams, because if you can do that, you can do anything "
[Waking Life]

Supermarket shopping done. The car keys fixed. The car washed. Slept for over 10 hours in one take.. Watched TV. Nothing of interest though. No book left to read. No chores to be done. That’s my weekend gone. I wanted to write about my simple weekend in simple words. and looks like I've accomplished it. Pretty boring words for a pretty boring day... Surprisingly didn’t bother me. The other times I would never write an entry if I haven't got anything meaningful to say...Must be one of those moments in life, you’re your mind hibernates for a while before the hyper phase of crazy summer kicks in…
 
Thinking process also slowed down, degrading to the basics. Sometimes you think, but can not really identify your thoughts. It feels as if you are floating inside your thoughts, hence unable to see what they are in reality. I thought of something subtle and uncertain, but could not quite catch the thought…something about being close to one another and being distant the same time…then I remembered I’ve already had this thought in the past…so there is really no point to re-think the thought you've thought about already...I wrote on 24th of April 2003:
We like to build our own world and live in sand castles, we've created. It's like an - obsession - the more imagination you use, more unreal world become around you and lesser you wish to break it back into the real one. It is "virtually" safer in there - against any logical arguments, but it does fits me well. Guess, everyone has his Sand Castle in personal design. That's why, perhaps, we always - strangers to each other's inner little worlds, but - neighbours - in the world of dreams… 

I think, I want to go and see that Brokeback Mountain movie - I've downloaded its soundtrack and liked it very much. That hasn't got anything to do with what's written above, by the way, just a random thought, happenned while I was typing...(and you can see how thoughts that come into our unsuspected mind do so very accidentally indeed)
10 Comments
  • From:
    Kordelle (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    lovely entries from lovely Lana does measure the colour spectrum of life with words

    that was a beautiful verse about the sandcastle and an excellent point our psychic scaffolding is so extensive and so unique that another person will never understand the depths of our minds and it is sometimes difficult to even be our own lovers because some of our psychic makeup is hidden from ourselves

    to make love with your mind and know it all touch it all this is getting kinky ha ha
    end of this post
  • From:
    Kordelle (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    sometimes when I do abastract art I feel like you do that I cant actually reach my thoughts I seem to go deeper to mindbody exploration which is a beautiful feeling because there is so much linguistic tension in words
    I agree with your prior post when you said it is relaxing not to philosophize true peace goes beyond the word and yet the word is sacred
    like the bible says a peace that surpasses all understanding

    but we musnt quit philosophizing it is too much fun
    end of this post
  • From:
    Kordelle (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    totally lovely Lana I agree we always seek out the same frequencies to match our mood whether it is music or anything else

    however I think it is possible to rise abovethis if I am feeling blue then consciously I decide to play a lively irish jig and sometimes it draws me out of my blues well maybe it is just my irish ways
    end of post
  • From:
    Kordelle (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    yikes about the autopsy
    that was cute you close your eyes and just listen
    cheating Miss Tick ha ha

    some artists are obsessed with drawing dead bodies well I guess our whole culture hides death and this is probably what makes us so afraid in part

    end of post
  • From:
    Kordelle (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    cheerio lovely Lana
    now for the silly private dive
    if I am going to blog once a week I have to make it good coverage I dont want to miss out on anything ha ha
  • From:
    Windchimes (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    and i enjoy reading today's entry of yours even if you feel like you're not in the mood to write. sometimes, it's what comes out from the mind spontaneously that easily connects to me.

    i am now very intrigued about that movie which bagged the golden globe as best pic. will have to find a way to get a copy of that.

    :)
  • From:
    Nibbles (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    Your weekend didn't sound too eventful. I'll give Justin your number, and maybe that will liven things up.

    *giggles*

    Miss Nibbles
  • From:
    Warlocc (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    When I get bored, I start dialing phone numbers randomly and... uh... nevermind.
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Jan 24 2006
    so yu finished the book?
    What did you think of it??
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Jan 29 2006
    Sand castles are so impermanent. Check my Welcome page on DD:

    Neurotics build castles in the air; psychotics live in them; psychiatrists collect the rent.

    Shalom