Recess. A break from everything. A hiding game to take a breath and gain back what’s been lost. Not because I am hiding from anyone, but rather finding back myself. And exercise in not being here. Of being somewhere else, even if somewhere else is nowhere…Just wanted to be away from the public eyes. A little Virtual Me-Time
Feels surprisingly good. I was expecting writer’s urge hits, cantstayaway’s and other withdrawal symptoms. Nope. None. Good.
At some point of sharing there comes an understanding that not everything we are prepared to share, is gladly taken by those we’d share with…something must stay within us and unfortunately it is not by our choice either…for some it is a small part of their life, for others – a part that is bigger then a life herself. There is a time to review what’s to share and what’s not in order not to burden others. It seems strange that being social we can be very reserved the same time, but this is how it is…time to say something like “oh well”…funny how for the last few years I’ve been so reserved in my circle of close friends that neglected gaining a new ones… its just felt being complete as it is…as it was. I always felt that it is not a good way to rather have many less close friends then few too close ones. And now it is biting me back…the strangest thing is – it feels like all my social skills have gone without being applied for a long long time…as well as readiness to start again…
Maybe it is this time of life when you’d rather be alone then have many those with whom you can share little…
I think I will try timealone for a little bit longer. It seems to be helping me in a way...or in the other way...
Feels surprisingly good. I was expecting writer’s urge hits, cantstayaway’s and other withdrawal symptoms. Nope. None. Good.
At some point of sharing there comes an understanding that not everything we are prepared to share, is gladly taken by those we’d share with…something must stay within us and unfortunately it is not by our choice either…for some it is a small part of their life, for others – a part that is bigger then a life herself. There is a time to review what’s to share and what’s not in order not to burden others. It seems strange that being social we can be very reserved the same time, but this is how it is…time to say something like “oh well”…funny how for the last few years I’ve been so reserved in my circle of close friends that neglected gaining a new ones… its just felt being complete as it is…as it was. I always felt that it is not a good way to rather have many less close friends then few too close ones. And now it is biting me back…the strangest thing is – it feels like all my social skills have gone without being applied for a long long time…as well as readiness to start again…
Maybe it is this time of life when you’d rather be alone then have many those with whom you can share little…
I think I will try timealone for a little bit longer. It seems to be helping me in a way...or in the other way...