Boring Weekend Report
Mon Apr 23 2007

Really cannot think of a smart title today. but then again -mundane entries deserve unsmart titles, methinks...

After being hit hard by the “April’s heat wave”, we are now back to our usual self: miserable misty rain for miserable murky Island. That’s more like it…surprisingly I discovered that I’m more comfortable with the “usual” then with the “natural surprises”.

The weather returned to her senses only on Monday morning, so weekend was filled with summer activities, mostly of the gardening kind. Finally I can say: I’ve got my garden to the state when I can say it is perfect to my current taste. Hope this will allow me just enjoy being in the garden (as opposed to work in it)

I’ve arranged few days of break in two weeks – in the beginning of May. As it becomes a habit now, I will join my hb on his business trip. This time to Geneva. I’m surprised how little I know about Switzerland – I haven’t got a clue what to see there. But I’m going only for 4 days, so not in my usual hectic explorer pace. And I intend just to have a relaxing break from the chaos of my world. Funny thing happened with this trip as well, made me laugh. Last October when I went to New York, I accidentally managed to book my travel for the NY Marathon week. Guess what: 6th of May is the day of Geneva Marathon! Ain’t I lucky? It seems that I can never escape from the sweaty running guys…makes one wonder…LOL

Nothing else to report apart from few thoughts that teased my mind over last few days…

The easiness of us…the more we try to be as easy as we can to others, the more trying they tend to see us…Just when you’d think you’re perfect…is it because we are less ourselves when we are “trying”?

The changing times…as times goes by, we become satisfied with less…or so it seems…we have less enthusiasm to try new things, less willingness to make an effort to be slightly different, to change us in positive direction…once we’ve reached some sort of peace, we stop…as if there is nothing to achieve any more…as if should we keep going, we won’t see any difference…once we get to certain point of satisfaction, we simply stop moving further…we keep in touch less and when we do we share less…not because we no longer trust above the certain line, but just because with time we become less needy to share…or could it be that we simply stop care?

I’m watching with the slight sadness how what used to be the close connections fading away gradually…how what used to be impatience to see, to talk, to share a smile, has now become just a contentment of knowing they’re there…somewhere…around…in heart or spirit at least…I cannot say it makes me happy though…I think, if I’d be asked of my personal preferences, I’d choose the connections that are more “alive”…not just a memory of good times, but creation of the times even better…being content is a good thing, but having energy to be alive the same time is much better, methinks...
4 Comments
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Apr 23 2007
    I don't think we stop caring. It's just that the caring isn't as imminent as it used to be. I'm sadly reminded of lost connection, and most of them are lost thru my own inertia. That's sad.

    You make me think too much. But I'll not stop reading you, because I need that boot in the brain.

    Shalom
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Apr 23 2007
    Vocalizing is, indeed, a good way to get the thoughts in order. That's why a good psychotherapist is good. S/he gets the "patient" to talk, ramble, reminisce, stream of consciousness...and voila, the subconscious starts talking.

    Don't ask me how I feel about something. Ask me what does that mean to me. Angry, hateful, sorrowful, lonely...well, yeah, that's why I'm sitting here and paying you big bucks to figure out what's wrong with me. But encourage, lead me, to talk about what is anger, hate, etc.,...gives me some insight as to the "real" problem, and how those emotions are affecting the problem.

    You have an excellent way of self-talking.
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
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    Mon Apr 23 2007
    How fun about the marathon.. perhaps it is telling you something.. Perhaps to participate in the race...??? yeah! you are young, healthy and you could run a marathon if you wanted.
    So are you going to begin training?????

    Switzerland ~I'd love to visit..I think i have some ancestors from that end of the globe

    I'm reading a book about Chili. *(my armchair travel)
  • From:
    Ichandra (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Apr 24 2007
    ah my friend
    spring has come to you excellent
    enjoy your gardening
    Iam enjoying my valley walks
    two little black and white birds only a couple of inches long fluttering through an endless maze of budding twigs
    I dont think Ill ever forget them