It is one of those days…days when you wake up in the morning washed in tears from realisation that there is no one in the whole world who wants you. I mean – that poisoned feeling of inadequacy. I’ve been told not once how wonderful I am, kind, soft, warm, caring, a good and reliable friend, etc…I’m in conflict with this statement: if I’m all these things why you do what you do?...you said: I don’t deserve to be hurt, it will be better for me if you leave…I am failing to see how you can make someone happier by making them unhappy?…I cannot comprehend if I truly deserve to be loved, why not by you? It took 23 years for you to get to know me and realise you cannot?... Can you now imagine me giving my trust to someone else the same way I’ve trusted you?...Can you imagine that feeling when there is no one…NO ONE who wants you in their life, despite of how wonderful you might appear?...I'm feeling slightly out of logic...in adequate...Is this is supposed to be better for me? Is this supposed to make me better? Perhaps, I should just turn into bitch and say fuck you all, I do not believe in love anymore...
It's one of those days, I suppose...
It's one of those days, I suppose...