One Two Three…in the most of the Fairy Tales once you counted to three, the Magic happens and your wish tends to come true…it’s the First of December – new month, new time, new magic…and even if there isn’t one visible on the horizon, what prevents us to look out for it anyway?!
So it is December, new beginnings, and I’ll start again…One Two Three…actually, it is easier once you stop believing in Fairy Tale of Your Life. It’s a bit like growing up into seeing truth about Santa Clause and Easter Bunny, isn’t it? You accept they are fun and sentimental things to have, but aware that they are also things that never exist in reality…and once this misconception is out of the way, all you have to do is to enjoy what’s left of the Seasonal Joy.
My new season started nicely and with positive emotions. So guess, I should not complain. I’m amazed once again at the ways friendship works…few days ago, when I was, let’s say, not in my best emotional shape, I happened to whinge on my “facebook.ru”…I’ve got so many responses immediately, I was almost overwhelmed! Few classmates invited me to spend holidays with them, few others sent sweet and cheerful suggestions on “how to cope well when you don’t seem to cope well”…what amazes me the most, yet again, that those are the people I can safely say I hardly know! Yes, we spend like first 10 meaningful years of life together, but other then that we had nothing shared for like 25-27 years since…you would’ve thought what makes them bother…and unwillingly I keep going back to my previous Year of Trials with no memories of any of my current life time friends reaching out, even after they knew what’s going on…well, I can take out one or two to thank for their effort, granted…but not of those whom I always thought I can rely on totally, who I never believed would let me down and leave without a shoulder…oh well, guess, my choices whom to consider friends were poor ones…never mind…it doesn’t really matter from where the support comes from…there were a lot of Positives in the beginning of my month and that’s what important, right?!
After some musings about how to find back my lost seasonal cheer, I suddenly discovered there is still something in this Time that makes me smile…it’s also happened to be one of the rare things I’ve found good about being single. I am free from any reservations about Christmas presents! I don’t have to consider family budget anymore when choosing Christmas gifts for those I love…don’t have to “have a spending limit for a season” …and that is such a great feeling, even if it means sitting on a “diet” next month, limiting travels for the next few and even if it means not replacing my broken ipod for another month or so…but hey, all of these is so not important, as I can smile today already imagining faces of those who will get my Perfect Gifts, picked up with love and thoughts of them…it is such a pleasure to give a good present…if you’d ever ask me what do I like more – to receive the presents or to give them, I would definitely go for the giving – it is so much more in it…so much more…yes, I did overspent, but for the return of a happy smile it is well worth it really…
And so…new month, new beginning…new attempt to walk my way away from the past…and even if this new try will end up in the same place, at least I can say: I never gave up on me…they say, if you get up every morning and carry on with your day the best that you can, then you are truly doing something for yourself. So let me do something for me, because I worth it…One…Two…Three…
So it is December, new beginnings, and I’ll start again…One Two Three…actually, it is easier once you stop believing in Fairy Tale of Your Life. It’s a bit like growing up into seeing truth about Santa Clause and Easter Bunny, isn’t it? You accept they are fun and sentimental things to have, but aware that they are also things that never exist in reality…and once this misconception is out of the way, all you have to do is to enjoy what’s left of the Seasonal Joy.
My new season started nicely and with positive emotions. So guess, I should not complain. I’m amazed once again at the ways friendship works…few days ago, when I was, let’s say, not in my best emotional shape, I happened to whinge on my “facebook.ru”…I’ve got so many responses immediately, I was almost overwhelmed! Few classmates invited me to spend holidays with them, few others sent sweet and cheerful suggestions on “how to cope well when you don’t seem to cope well”…what amazes me the most, yet again, that those are the people I can safely say I hardly know! Yes, we spend like first 10 meaningful years of life together, but other then that we had nothing shared for like 25-27 years since…you would’ve thought what makes them bother…and unwillingly I keep going back to my previous Year of Trials with no memories of any of my current life time friends reaching out, even after they knew what’s going on…well, I can take out one or two to thank for their effort, granted…but not of those whom I always thought I can rely on totally, who I never believed would let me down and leave without a shoulder…oh well, guess, my choices whom to consider friends were poor ones…never mind…it doesn’t really matter from where the support comes from…there were a lot of Positives in the beginning of my month and that’s what important, right?!
After some musings about how to find back my lost seasonal cheer, I suddenly discovered there is still something in this Time that makes me smile…it’s also happened to be one of the rare things I’ve found good about being single. I am free from any reservations about Christmas presents! I don’t have to consider family budget anymore when choosing Christmas gifts for those I love…don’t have to “have a spending limit for a season” …and that is such a great feeling, even if it means sitting on a “diet” next month, limiting travels for the next few and even if it means not replacing my broken ipod for another month or so…but hey, all of these is so not important, as I can smile today already imagining faces of those who will get my Perfect Gifts, picked up with love and thoughts of them…it is such a pleasure to give a good present…if you’d ever ask me what do I like more – to receive the presents or to give them, I would definitely go for the giving – it is so much more in it…so much more…yes, I did overspent, but for the return of a happy smile it is well worth it really…
And so…new month, new beginning…new attempt to walk my way away from the past…and even if this new try will end up in the same place, at least I can say: I never gave up on me…they say, if you get up every morning and carry on with your day the best that you can, then you are truly doing something for yourself. So let me do something for me, because I worth it…One…Two…Three…