A wise man was asked once: what is the difference between the fear and the horror? He said: we feel the fear before giving in to the temptation and the horror – after, when expecting the consequences.
Imagine there are two cups above your head. In one all the good things you’ve ever done in your life are gathered, in another one – all the bad things…and it depends on you only, which of two cups will overflow and spill out onto your head.
Recently we discussed with the colleagues the lottery matters. It went like this:
Me:
- it would’ve been so good to have won a lottery!
Them:
- oh, yeah! If you’d win the lottery you could quit your job and do anything you like!
Me:
- but my job is what I like to do, I don’t want to win a lottery to quit it!
Them:
- but what else can you do if you’d win the lottery?!
Me:
- errrmmm…everything else that I cannot do right now?
I found it amusing so many people think they can be happier if the don’t have to work at all. But then they would face a difficult job to find so many other things to fill up all that free time in their day, not just “things" to do, but “things-which-make-them-happy”! In my opinion it is so much easier to find a job that you like instead; then you’d only have to sort out the fraction of your spare time and still enjoy your days. Am I the Odd-One-Out?
Hanging around DS boards, a certain trail caught my attention. So many people talking about how they are no longer what they use to be and how they used to like them-old-selves more. And how they would like to find them-old-self back. Nothing’s wrong with it, I suppose. I gave it a thought in relation to myself. And decided that although the old me wasn’t that bad of a person at all, I do not miss her. I do not want to be the same anymore. Even though I think I was just fine. Strangely enough having been less for a time made me realise that I can be so much more then before.