They do happen from time to time. you are doing fine, in fact, better and better and just when you’d think, you’ve got onto the straight and clear path and it’s straight forward from here, you slip…I guess, one should allow such moments to prick you occasionally. To remind not all the work has been done yet, not all the changes…changed…and to remind the core reason why are you here, in this particular place at this particular moment of time…I wanted to write about feeling good about yourself. I’ve spent the whole evening yesterday hanging around Daily Strength site – haven’t been there since Christmas break. Apparently they promoted me into group’s admin that stroked my self-esteem nicely and inspired for few posts there. It felt great, as it’s always feels great to be appreciated, isn’t it. It gives you power, fills you up with energy and makes you want to do ever more for the others…I ran through quite a few of threads leaving opinions, advises, notes…it was an evening of inspiration…and when I finally ran out of the things to say, I’ve set up to go through the holiday pictures my son took on his camera and sent to me for sorting. I was looking at these photographs and there was a woman staring back at me from there…I looked at her and realised I didn’t want to see her… old, shapeless, tasteless outfits, wrinkles and all…so out of synch with how I was feeling about myself…I suddenly thought that it was a good thing that I had not much of a chance to see myself in the mirror while on holidays, at least self-perception didn’t spoil holiday joy for me…but boy, don’t I look awful…I hate such moments when they come…the times when I see myself through my ex-husband’s eyes…he said he will never find another friend like me, but he have never found a women in me either…sometimes I look at me and see exactly what he meant…Something to stay with me for the rest of my days...Slips happen …the road is never easy…especially in the weather like this…