MissTick
Thingish Things

I made a consious decision to announce the end of my house renovation project. It is technically not quite there yet, however, in so many other ways it is. So I anmounced publically about my intentions not to do anything more under the house improvement excuse. Period. I am finished. And I am tired. And so I should be. A long year of all sorts of trials, tears, plans, designs, dissapointments and also lots of joy seeing the results coming out. Some were totally unexpected, mostly, in a good way. Last weekend I laid last slab in my backyard and said "this is it". Yes, of course, some after cleaning, two rows of tiling in the kitchen and an insulation of a small closet is on the list for 2013, but these jobs are so insignificant compare to the rest, they can be referred as daily routine jobs, really. I have to say it does feels weird to come home and do not do things. you know, things that involve hardcore DIY-ing. just plain weird. I'll get over it, I think. I'm hoping for more peaceful hours to catch up with DDLand, with friends, with myself, with just about everything. A friend of mine has died last week. Another cancer's victim. How many more are due before humanity will find a cure?! Nobody knows. It makes me feel sad and so insignificant, as much as I am already feeling insignificant enough as it is. the funerals are in few days. Brought some unexpected thoughts, I thought I've been over with for some time. But they do come back to haunt me every now and then...friend's last days of life have been challenging enough to make him scream in pain and perhaps, even in fear, but his wife was always there, by his side, holding hand and seeing him leaving. their last days together were full of love, love and more of it. perhaps, to go this way is not the best way to go, but to go in knowledge you are loved to the end of life is something us, singles, may find too close to the heart...in all my bravery and independance I ask myself do you want to be alone when your time comes? and I know the answer...