Ok, Let's see,
For the last two weeks I have been going on very low energy, not sleeping or eating much, working a lot, for a 15 year old, waking up at 7 a.m. and working from 8-3:30 then going straight to another job from then till 9 is HARD!!!
Plus, I know in my last entry I mentioned a friend who got raped, well, I wasn't telling the truth and in my own diary!!! I was raped by smeone whom I trusted and have been so hurt by. I had to go to have a rape test done, take antibotics that gave me a yeast infection, et cetera. I have had the nightmares and the shaking everytime I think he's going to come around, the police haven't found him yet and so I wonder sometimes if he knows I reported it?!!!
Not too long ago I met a wonderful person who has a job a lot of people want and is not too common for people, and he's great at it, and most of all, from the personal way I was priveliged to meet him, he's a wonderful inspiring and compassionate person, he may have flown in space before but that's not what I think he's wonderful for. I met him through a really wonderful friend, my former teacher at elementary school. I love her very much and I have to sneak around to see her because of something that happened with my real mom once. I crave the kind of love and attention that I get from my "true friends" which most are older then me, they are great advise givers and listening ears and they make me live, they help me through this hard life every step of the way. I don't know how I'll ever get to thank them,... I don't think I can!!!
Some more of my friends, a lady at one of the jobs I have, she was brushing and braiding my hair and she asked me in private, why did you go to the bathroom and throw up after you ate those cookies??? I froze, knowing she had followed me yet kind of glad she did, glad she cared.
At my other job I have my mom and dad whom aren't even related to me. I am NOT embarrased to call them mom and dad instead of their real names at work, and I am pretty sure that the others are used to it by now!
Those people and some things such as all of my pictures that I have from most events in my life from disposable cameras, cards from Christmas's and birthdays and other special times, like get wells, those are things that make me feel great and special and loved. I live everyday for the small yet great things like that!!!
Well, I'm dead tired now so I'll write again soon, I hope that if you read this you'll leave a comment of some kind on here, Take Care!!! !Me
For the last two weeks I have been going on very low energy, not sleeping or eating much, working a lot, for a 15 year old, waking up at 7 a.m. and working from 8-3:30 then going straight to another job from then till 9 is HARD!!!
Plus, I know in my last entry I mentioned a friend who got raped, well, I wasn't telling the truth and in my own diary!!! I was raped by smeone whom I trusted and have been so hurt by. I had to go to have a rape test done, take antibotics that gave me a yeast infection, et cetera. I have had the nightmares and the shaking everytime I think he's going to come around, the police haven't found him yet and so I wonder sometimes if he knows I reported it?!!!
Not too long ago I met a wonderful person who has a job a lot of people want and is not too common for people, and he's great at it, and most of all, from the personal way I was priveliged to meet him, he's a wonderful inspiring and compassionate person, he may have flown in space before but that's not what I think he's wonderful for. I met him through a really wonderful friend, my former teacher at elementary school. I love her very much and I have to sneak around to see her because of something that happened with my real mom once. I crave the kind of love and attention that I get from my "true friends" which most are older then me, they are great advise givers and listening ears and they make me live, they help me through this hard life every step of the way. I don't know how I'll ever get to thank them,... I don't think I can!!!
Some more of my friends, a lady at one of the jobs I have, she was brushing and braiding my hair and she asked me in private, why did you go to the bathroom and throw up after you ate those cookies??? I froze, knowing she had followed me yet kind of glad she did, glad she cared.
At my other job I have my mom and dad whom aren't even related to me. I am NOT embarrased to call them mom and dad instead of their real names at work, and I am pretty sure that the others are used to it by now!
Those people and some things such as all of my pictures that I have from most events in my life from disposable cameras, cards from Christmas's and birthdays and other special times, like get wells, those are things that make me feel great and special and loved. I live everyday for the small yet great things like that!!!
Well, I'm dead tired now so I'll write again soon, I hope that if you read this you'll leave a comment of some kind on here, Take Care!!! !Me