Yesterday I called my therapist and left a message really late at night to cancel our appointment today due to no babysitters. I got ahold of her after I woke up and we rescheduled for tomorrow, and I am glad we were able to.
I took the girls over to stay with their Daddy for a couple of days for visitation. I feel guilty that it's work nights for his parents, but at the same time it is not my problem that he lives with them and has kids he needs to help take care of! I just hope they don't do it for him! At least this way I know J will have some time with them alone since they both should be working during the days.
I didn't feel like eating today. I wasn't hungry till really late, and then I finally ate something and I did purge. My heart and mind about recovery are in two different places right now.
I don't have much to add right now, I am just going to be takling it easy and hanging out by myself as much as possible for a couple of days. I think I am going to read for a bit, watch a movie or play a game, then go to sleep. I just hope this weather holds up so I can make it to my appointment tomorrow!
I took the girls over to stay with their Daddy for a couple of days for visitation. I feel guilty that it's work nights for his parents, but at the same time it is not my problem that he lives with them and has kids he needs to help take care of! I just hope they don't do it for him! At least this way I know J will have some time with them alone since they both should be working during the days.
I didn't feel like eating today. I wasn't hungry till really late, and then I finally ate something and I did purge. My heart and mind about recovery are in two different places right now.
I don't have much to add right now, I am just going to be takling it easy and hanging out by myself as much as possible for a couple of days. I think I am going to read for a bit, watch a movie or play a game, then go to sleep. I just hope this weather holds up so I can make it to my appointment tomorrow!