I am bummed because I went to sleep late and slept in and missed church today. I can't stand when that happens!
An old friend from HS had called a while ago and left a message and I just called him back. Two more years till our ten year reunion! I will be there though I don't think I'll stay too long. Never did well in high school.
I need to find a new stuffed animal for Emily that sings, hers stiopped right when I gave her this teddy bear and she gets distraught over it. It doesn't sing, actually, it prays.
Decided that I really did need a break for now but am trying to not get into the cycle too badly, I missed breakfast, didn't feel like making lunch since my cousin already fed my kids for me, and I know I don't want to do dinner, either. I usually end up binging after not eating like this, but I think that if I can just not do it then I will be ok with this,.. and starving and not bingeing and purging later is hard to do, but that's what I am doing right now, and taking the diuretics. I want to be recovered but not enough right now. I just wish this wasn't something I did at all, but what can I say? I am not recovered, and I have been trying but it's too much for me now. I just want to back off for a while, see what happens. I will either get better or worse,.. I do want to want to be better again!