Hello!
I had an ok time, except plans were really getting srewqed up every time I turned around almost, so at first we were going to go to GA, then we weren't, then to NC, then we weren't, then mom wanted to go to Tenn at Pigeon Forge and everything, so we went there and stayed the week, we had a couple of really bad, cry-on-your-pillow days, well, I did, mom just held her head high and made excuses for some stupid stupid stupid stuff she did, and I ended up somehow getting myself through them, which is really exhausting and hard to do, you have to be a real strong thing to, and you have to have a heart of steel when it comes to my mom, because you have to handle anything and everything she throws your way. And I don't know how I make it here with her.
Last Thursday we did go to North Carolina for a little bit, only to shop for souvineers at the Cherrokkee Reservation and Harrahs, this casino that last year when we went there, mom left me and Teri at a burger king and to shop by ourselves to visit the casino since "it's her vacation too, she can have some fun also" and 2-2 and a half hours after she was supposed to get us, she showed up, and was surprised we were mad at her, because it wasn't her fault, she just lost track of time and kept playing money she won. Boy, and I let her do it again,...
She told me that she'd just stop in their to get a souvineer for my uncle and found out instead of me having to sit in the hot car that I could go in, too. Well, that's a long story but while I sat in this stupid little kids room that if you opened the door the security guards hounded on you, while mom sat at a slot machine!!! After saying she'd only go into get something!!! When I went behind her to tell her that I wasn't allowed by her and had togo in this kids room, a security guard came up and led me to it and made sure I went inside. Throughout the whole thing, mom sat with her eyes glued too the machine and she ignored me. She has a problem and all she did when finally coming outside and seeing me where I was smoking up a storm, well, she started the damn excuses and she thought I'd buy them, and somehow she even managed to turn it into MY FAULT> I had NO REASON to be pissed off at her!!!!! She was looking for me, she sid. When I was led away, her eyes much less her bottom near left that seat!!!!! I found her 'cause I stepped outside the room and to that security guard I asked him if there was any way he could tell my mother that I was leaving, and when he was about to page her, I gave her name and I said well, she has to drive me! I was ready to walk in that hot sun though!!! So that's when she figured it out and then later blamed me, and I told dad when he asked me today after getting home that no, she didn't gamble at all, I have to defend my poor mother after all! I only did 'cause I'm tired of the crap he puts us through, trying to get info that will help him even if it hurts us in the divorcing.
Ok, I have to go, sorry I can't write more but I'm crying again, HONESTLY!!!! Sorry it's not a better entry, but it's the truth, sad but true, and I may write tomm, school starts wed, and I have no plans yet, more later! :(
***************SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!***************
PLEASE EXCUSE THE FRENCH ON THERE!!! I MEAN< THE BAD ENGLISH LANGUAGE< I WAS UPSET THINKING ABOUT IT AND DIDN'T MEAN TO TAKE IT OUT ON ANYONE IT WAS JUST HOW I WAS FEELING TALK TO YOU LATER!
I had an ok time, except plans were really getting srewqed up every time I turned around almost, so at first we were going to go to GA, then we weren't, then to NC, then we weren't, then mom wanted to go to Tenn at Pigeon Forge and everything, so we went there and stayed the week, we had a couple of really bad, cry-on-your-pillow days, well, I did, mom just held her head high and made excuses for some stupid stupid stupid stuff she did, and I ended up somehow getting myself through them, which is really exhausting and hard to do, you have to be a real strong thing to, and you have to have a heart of steel when it comes to my mom, because you have to handle anything and everything she throws your way. And I don't know how I make it here with her.
Last Thursday we did go to North Carolina for a little bit, only to shop for souvineers at the Cherrokkee Reservation and Harrahs, this casino that last year when we went there, mom left me and Teri at a burger king and to shop by ourselves to visit the casino since "it's her vacation too, she can have some fun also" and 2-2 and a half hours after she was supposed to get us, she showed up, and was surprised we were mad at her, because it wasn't her fault, she just lost track of time and kept playing money she won. Boy, and I let her do it again,...
She told me that she'd just stop in their to get a souvineer for my uncle and found out instead of me having to sit in the hot car that I could go in, too. Well, that's a long story but while I sat in this stupid little kids room that if you opened the door the security guards hounded on you, while mom sat at a slot machine!!! After saying she'd only go into get something!!! When I went behind her to tell her that I wasn't allowed by her and had togo in this kids room, a security guard came up and led me to it and made sure I went inside. Throughout the whole thing, mom sat with her eyes glued too the machine and she ignored me. She has a problem and all she did when finally coming outside and seeing me where I was smoking up a storm, well, she started the damn excuses and she thought I'd buy them, and somehow she even managed to turn it into MY FAULT> I had NO REASON to be pissed off at her!!!!! She was looking for me, she sid. When I was led away, her eyes much less her bottom near left that seat!!!!! I found her 'cause I stepped outside the room and to that security guard I asked him if there was any way he could tell my mother that I was leaving, and when he was about to page her, I gave her name and I said well, she has to drive me! I was ready to walk in that hot sun though!!! So that's when she figured it out and then later blamed me, and I told dad when he asked me today after getting home that no, she didn't gamble at all, I have to defend my poor mother after all! I only did 'cause I'm tired of the crap he puts us through, trying to get info that will help him even if it hurts us in the divorcing.
Ok, I have to go, sorry I can't write more but I'm crying again, HONESTLY!!!! Sorry it's not a better entry, but it's the truth, sad but true, and I may write tomm, school starts wed, and I have no plans yet, more later! :(
***************SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!***************
PLEASE EXCUSE THE FRENCH ON THERE!!! I MEAN< THE BAD ENGLISH LANGUAGE< I WAS UPSET THINKING ABOUT IT AND DIDN'T MEAN TO TAKE IT OUT ON ANYONE IT WAS JUST HOW I WAS FEELING TALK TO YOU LATER!