Aten-hut! That's what it sounds like when either the commander or the Master Sergent or the XO is giving the command for us to stand (or sit) at attention. That means that we have to keep our bodies straight and that we have to look straight ahead, with our eyes boring through the wall or whatever else may be in front of us. Guess what we did in class today? That's right! We finally got our uniforms!!!!! The black shoes are actually pretty comfortable and they seem like they will be a lot easier to march in and drill in, and although the hat (cover) just lies on ur heads they make you look good, and respectable. And the white shirts, I have my JRROTC pin on top of my left pocket already, and the Navy pin on my hat. The trousers are allright, and I know now where to lay my hands at when at attention.
I got mine and proudly carried it in it's garment bag, along with my shoe box and not to mention my nice and heavy books, to my locker at school today, I only went up the three flights of stairs but I felt faintish. I made it, though!!!
I have no homework and a nice easy day at returning to school. Afterwards I walked over to a chinese rest. and ordered chicked chow mein and fried rice, ate a little, hated it, mabe just the chicken since it was my first time trying it, so I got a box and got back to school where my therapist picked me up, and helped me carry the stuff, and took me to the counselors office where we have group. I tried on my uniform there and showed it off to the counselors and recepsionists there that I know pretty well.
They loved it and I felt great!!! When we started group I had to lean againnst a girls feet without her shoes but that didn't bother me, her socks were clean, she was comfortable and didn't want to get up. The chairs and the other couch were already taken over from 3 regular girls and a new one, and Pam and a new t that is observing us, Laura. We said hi's and lo's of the week, and some get pretty depressing, ess. when we're serious.
Mine were that I had a nice week, but the low was that my best friend tried to kill herself. I was so jealous of the new girl from the start, she was a little taller then me, and SO SKINNY!!! The only thought that I had about myself was that I wish she was like me in this: My arms weren't all cutt up from me crving off of myself. You wouldn't believe how used to things like that and overdosing and stuff kids can get, ess. after being around lot's of people including theirselves that do it. After group, me, the new girl and another girl left to smoke. And then the other girl left, and I was going to the pop machine to get a drink and the new girl said she'd go with me aand by that time I was glad. I was a little curious about her, and she to me, too from what I could tell.
When we got to the machine, well, we ran into a lady in a wheelchair and she was actuallt on the elevator with us first and she heard some of our conversation, about my ow about my best friend, bout how longwe've been in the counseling thing, me like 3-4 years and her about 3 months, and stuff like that. Well, The lady didn't bother either of us at all and we talked to her, too. Asked her her name, and stuff. She seemed to follow us and I think that that may have just been for the company, but that was A OK. I asked her if she would like a drink and put some change in and she chose juice so I took it out for her. And when us eating disordered girls, me and the new girl were looking at the candy machine I asked the lady if she'fd like some, and she pointed at the animal crackers and then I put change in there and then she said, 1 minute, and then looked it over and said yes to the crackers. I smiled, she was sch a sweet person, and so innocent. So I took the animal crackers out. We eventually said goodbye to her and told her when we usually came so that maybe we can run into each other again, and I had this sudden impulse to hug her. I don't know why, but for some reason I went over to her in her wheelchair and I just wrapped my arms around her, and she hugged me back. It was like there was some kind of understanding we had, or just maybe we felt each other needed a little bit of love. I thought about her a lot today, and I hope that I will see her more when I'm at the office,a nd I have a feeling se would make a special trip to get there, too.
When we went back on the elevator to go upstairs, the girl told me that I was nice. I shrugged, trying not to mention it. It was a very nice compliment, though, and I deserved it, but I didn't do it for any certain reason. She said something else, asked me why I'm such a nice peron, the only thing that I could tell her was that there was no reason not to be. Like, I had a bunch of change in my pockets, and even if the lady had some too, I wanted to buy her something, it's hard to explain why exactly. I didn't have to, but I wanted to.
Well, I have to go to bed, but Pam came over again and came to the conclussion that I make mom sound like a monster, and the new girl and I are going to be good friends, we live not too0 far from each other and will see each other every week for a while, at least and we exchanged emails and phone numbers, and I think that we can help each other out. If you would have seen her, you would probably know for sure that she is annorexic I could tell she was, and on the phone later after talking about dinner and stuff, she said she was on a diet, and I said, yes, me to. Then I don't know who laughed first not that it's real funny, just that we each know better, and we know it, too! A
And I got a picture of the Mrs. H I mentioned before, it's my very first and I love it a lot, I can't believe it's the only one I have of her!!! This will sound weird but I'm going to frame it and bloww a kiss to it every night. I feel like the luckiest person in the world, doing good with things I have struggled with in the past,and now it seems to just be working out on it's own. I have two field trips this week, Friday and Saturday, I'll write more about them soon, Take Care and goodnight!
I got mine and proudly carried it in it's garment bag, along with my shoe box and not to mention my nice and heavy books, to my locker at school today, I only went up the three flights of stairs but I felt faintish. I made it, though!!!
I have no homework and a nice easy day at returning to school. Afterwards I walked over to a chinese rest. and ordered chicked chow mein and fried rice, ate a little, hated it, mabe just the chicken since it was my first time trying it, so I got a box and got back to school where my therapist picked me up, and helped me carry the stuff, and took me to the counselors office where we have group. I tried on my uniform there and showed it off to the counselors and recepsionists there that I know pretty well.
They loved it and I felt great!!! When we started group I had to lean againnst a girls feet without her shoes but that didn't bother me, her socks were clean, she was comfortable and didn't want to get up. The chairs and the other couch were already taken over from 3 regular girls and a new one, and Pam and a new t that is observing us, Laura. We said hi's and lo's of the week, and some get pretty depressing, ess. when we're serious.
Mine were that I had a nice week, but the low was that my best friend tried to kill herself. I was so jealous of the new girl from the start, she was a little taller then me, and SO SKINNY!!! The only thought that I had about myself was that I wish she was like me in this: My arms weren't all cutt up from me crving off of myself. You wouldn't believe how used to things like that and overdosing and stuff kids can get, ess. after being around lot's of people including theirselves that do it. After group, me, the new girl and another girl left to smoke. And then the other girl left, and I was going to the pop machine to get a drink and the new girl said she'd go with me aand by that time I was glad. I was a little curious about her, and she to me, too from what I could tell.
When we got to the machine, well, we ran into a lady in a wheelchair and she was actuallt on the elevator with us first and she heard some of our conversation, about my ow about my best friend, bout how longwe've been in the counseling thing, me like 3-4 years and her about 3 months, and stuff like that. Well, The lady didn't bother either of us at all and we talked to her, too. Asked her her name, and stuff. She seemed to follow us and I think that that may have just been for the company, but that was A OK. I asked her if she would like a drink and put some change in and she chose juice so I took it out for her. And when us eating disordered girls, me and the new girl were looking at the candy machine I asked the lady if she'fd like some, and she pointed at the animal crackers and then I put change in there and then she said, 1 minute, and then looked it over and said yes to the crackers. I smiled, she was sch a sweet person, and so innocent. So I took the animal crackers out. We eventually said goodbye to her and told her when we usually came so that maybe we can run into each other again, and I had this sudden impulse to hug her. I don't know why, but for some reason I went over to her in her wheelchair and I just wrapped my arms around her, and she hugged me back. It was like there was some kind of understanding we had, or just maybe we felt each other needed a little bit of love. I thought about her a lot today, and I hope that I will see her more when I'm at the office,a nd I have a feeling se would make a special trip to get there, too.
When we went back on the elevator to go upstairs, the girl told me that I was nice. I shrugged, trying not to mention it. It was a very nice compliment, though, and I deserved it, but I didn't do it for any certain reason. She said something else, asked me why I'm such a nice peron, the only thing that I could tell her was that there was no reason not to be. Like, I had a bunch of change in my pockets, and even if the lady had some too, I wanted to buy her something, it's hard to explain why exactly. I didn't have to, but I wanted to.
Well, I have to go to bed, but Pam came over again and came to the conclussion that I make mom sound like a monster, and the new girl and I are going to be good friends, we live not too0 far from each other and will see each other every week for a while, at least and we exchanged emails and phone numbers, and I think that we can help each other out. If you would have seen her, you would probably know for sure that she is annorexic I could tell she was, and on the phone later after talking about dinner and stuff, she said she was on a diet, and I said, yes, me to. Then I don't know who laughed first not that it's real funny, just that we each know better, and we know it, too! A
And I got a picture of the Mrs. H I mentioned before, it's my very first and I love it a lot, I can't believe it's the only one I have of her!!! This will sound weird but I'm going to frame it and bloww a kiss to it every night. I feel like the luckiest person in the world, doing good with things I have struggled with in the past,and now it seems to just be working out on it's own. I have two field trips this week, Friday and Saturday, I'll write more about them soon, Take Care and goodnight!