today I woke up later then usual (I just love breaks from school!) and I worked (volunteered to for some extra money and for something to do) and froze as usual, I think I'm really really hot blooded, forget warm blooded! and I folded and hung and put away al least two loads of laundry I've caught up on, and continued doing things in my room in the basement that steve, my therapist was helping me with yesterday after our group.
Yesterday at group it was the second week with the two new therapists, foirst tere was amy, but she mmoved to another state after marrying an actor, then there was pam, who had to leave the office and works in a hospital as a social worker now, then laura came, who is very nice, a little quiet but all smiles, then now there is tonya who so far hasn't been a big hit to us. She came and and since she's new started trying to takle over, basically. See, I happen to not mind adults who actually take charge, esp. when they're supposed to, it's just that people like my mom I can't handle as well. My mom has never taken control over anything the way she should, like she hasn't made sure we've been fed properly, and on time, or that when we were younger our stuff for school was done or ready on time, that we got out the door to walk to school then later tothe bus on time, that we've slept on time and gotten enough rest, when we're sick, well, mostly me, the only time she has helped was when I've gone to the nurses at school, really sick by then, and she would talkk to mom and have her take me to the doctors office. Or when I've had to go to the hospital, anywhere from od'ing to ph tubes, to spinal mengitus, to a broken wrist, et cetera. She couldn't ignore that.
I'm giving Tonya a chance, though, because that's how I am, I like everyone from the start, and I privately observe them and later on decide if I can think of them a certain way, and my mind is always open to the thought I acually could misjudge them, for good or bad.
At group me and another girl went out to smoke before it started, but we didn't feel like going outside because it's cold, and I happen to not worry about getting in trouble in certain situations, so we went to the bathroom and stood by the sink and smoked, and then when someone came in, we burnt them out, ran water over the ashes in the sink, and thankfully the lady went straight to a stall, we left, laughing and went back into the office where the lady couldn't catch us. Well, who would it happened to be but the terapist of the group, tonya! She came in, and she saw us and said I know you two were smoking in the bathroom. All I said is we didn't feel like going outside in the cold, and I shrugged. And later just for the hell of it we sat right outside in the hallway and smoked before she was going to come out, the other girl wenmt into the guys rr to burn and tghrow hers out, but I sat there with it, then there came tonya and I did bother to throw it on the floor behind me, I don't know why, but she looked at us and said, girls, I smell it. That's not funny. the other girl said, me? and tonya apologized to her since she didn't have hers then, and I just reached behind me and picked mine up and placed it into a cup of metabolite that I had, this diet drink, and she left, like see you next week, bye. I kjnow that I have already given her the wrong impression of myself, but I don't give a crap, really. Maybe I'm nervous around her or something, because I don't normally act like that around ANYONE, much less someone I just met. If this relationship keeps oing that way, I'll quit group.
Oh, guess what,. Kip!!!!! there is this I have to go, I'll update soon,....
Yesterday at group it was the second week with the two new therapists, foirst tere was amy, but she mmoved to another state after marrying an actor, then there was pam, who had to leave the office and works in a hospital as a social worker now, then laura came, who is very nice, a little quiet but all smiles, then now there is tonya who so far hasn't been a big hit to us. She came and and since she's new started trying to takle over, basically. See, I happen to not mind adults who actually take charge, esp. when they're supposed to, it's just that people like my mom I can't handle as well. My mom has never taken control over anything the way she should, like she hasn't made sure we've been fed properly, and on time, or that when we were younger our stuff for school was done or ready on time, that we got out the door to walk to school then later tothe bus on time, that we've slept on time and gotten enough rest, when we're sick, well, mostly me, the only time she has helped was when I've gone to the nurses at school, really sick by then, and she would talkk to mom and have her take me to the doctors office. Or when I've had to go to the hospital, anywhere from od'ing to ph tubes, to spinal mengitus, to a broken wrist, et cetera. She couldn't ignore that.
I'm giving Tonya a chance, though, because that's how I am, I like everyone from the start, and I privately observe them and later on decide if I can think of them a certain way, and my mind is always open to the thought I acually could misjudge them, for good or bad.
At group me and another girl went out to smoke before it started, but we didn't feel like going outside because it's cold, and I happen to not worry about getting in trouble in certain situations, so we went to the bathroom and stood by the sink and smoked, and then when someone came in, we burnt them out, ran water over the ashes in the sink, and thankfully the lady went straight to a stall, we left, laughing and went back into the office where the lady couldn't catch us. Well, who would it happened to be but the terapist of the group, tonya! She came in, and she saw us and said I know you two were smoking in the bathroom. All I said is we didn't feel like going outside in the cold, and I shrugged. And later just for the hell of it we sat right outside in the hallway and smoked before she was going to come out, the other girl wenmt into the guys rr to burn and tghrow hers out, but I sat there with it, then there came tonya and I did bother to throw it on the floor behind me, I don't know why, but she looked at us and said, girls, I smell it. That's not funny. the other girl said, me? and tonya apologized to her since she didn't have hers then, and I just reached behind me and picked mine up and placed it into a cup of metabolite that I had, this diet drink, and she left, like see you next week, bye. I kjnow that I have already given her the wrong impression of myself, but I don't give a crap, really. Maybe I'm nervous around her or something, because I don't normally act like that around ANYONE, much less someone I just met. If this relationship keeps oing that way, I'll quit group.
Oh, guess what,. Kip!!!!! there is this I have to go, I'll update soon,....