Wow, for the longest time I have wanted to be a paramedic, and until later on, I realized that in the ares around where I live, in most f the fire departments you have to be certified as both, a medic and a firefighter. I really wish that I joined the explorers program before now! I have had much longer time to start reading up on and learning things that a paramedic will need to know, I only know a little bit about basic things, like patient assesment and scene assesment, and first aid, and what to say to a dispatcher when calling for an emergency, that's for people not in the ems, emergency medical services, like policemen, (law enforcement) medics, doctors, nurses, firefighters et cetera, and I have learned a few things from books that paramedics wrote about their calls, and from working in the nurses office at school, like little tricks, sort of, when you take someone's pulse I was taught to take it for about 15 seconds, and for the next 15 seconds count their respirations, because if you let them know you are watching their chest to see how many breaths they take, well, not intentionally they will be aware and start like laboring it themselves. Them you multiply the pulse 4 times, to make it a full minute.
I don't know what's going on with me, I'm a nurses's aid and I want to be an emergency medical technician, emt, yet I have it in my mind that besides the eating disorder, I'm healthy. I think I'm wrong with that, lately I have been so sluggish and tiired, that's an unhealthy sign, and that is most likely from my cold I've had for over a week, and the reason I'm not getting any better besides the fact that mom hasn't picked my prescription up yet, well, because I'm not eating and as tired as I have been, still not sleeping enough.
Yesterday both me and my sister Teri were late to school unexcused. I slept like normal on the couch and just couldn't get up, and Teri slept in the floor in the living with me for a change, because she was hot in her bedroom upstairs, and we slept in, mom had to srive us to school and we were late, and I haven't been late in the longest time when there was hardly a time I wasn't last year. Of course, today, Teri woke me up a few minutes before we needed to catch the bus, I got ready, then layed back down on the couch, thinking I still have one minute, I'll just rest my eyes,.... enough said. I woke up again about 2 hours later, and missed my first bell exam. Mom might as well had me stay home, because I got there when the people were leaving the first exam and going to their second class, and after that we all had to go to our third class and I did, the nurses office, and then the bell rang, I rmeembered that it was lunchtime, I won't go into details there, I felt really bad because I went to the cafeteria and brought lunch back, after lunch we only all had a couple of hours left before school was out, and so people took their third bell exam, and I don't have any in the nurses office sinvce I'm an office worker and that's my study hall, and so I got my wish I amde earlier in the year, I said that I wish I could stay in the nurses office all day long, instead of going to regular classes. That is probably the last time I would be in there as an office worker, now that second semester is coming up I get to start next week by my first class being aqautics, and that means that I'll be showing my wonderfully large self in a swimming suit and probably getting to feel so bad that I'll start wishing I could drown myself. No, not really.
OHMYGOSH Teri justsaid goodnight, and I LOVE YOU!!! I hope she's feeling allright, that's a rare occurance coming from her. Oh, but I love her, too and told her so. I said goodnight, then I love you, sweet deams, speaking of,...
I was miserable, I couldn't sleep last night, as usual, but I was sneezing a lot and crap, decided to dress up at school today so got this nice oufit ready, and the last time I looked at the clock before finally passing out it was 3:10 a.m. and I must have really gone strauight to REM sleep, because I started waking myself up, shaking from a nightmare that I had, it was about all of this food that I saw in front of me,... no, not really but I have had dreams that bad before, the nightmare was really with me at work, and my dad and Teri, Grandma and older sister, delores, it was strange, here's what I wrote after I got up from it and looked at the clock again, 3:44 that time and told mom all about it, I was like, oh my god, mom!!!! I said, I was asleep, I promise, I'm not just still awake, I had this nightmare,..... don't use it against dad in court,,,.......... here goes: now, this will be a long entry, and I don't care if anyone like you, sasha writes long comments,...
3:10 I fell asleep and now it's 3:45, dad- I was working at wendys, saw Diana and everyone (Diana is a manager) there and dad, well, I walked next door to go on break from wendys, which was Grandmas and anyone, Teri I and him get in his car (the him is my dad) he had to check something and the car rolled backwards I was in back w/Teri and grabbed her head because I could see the back windshield (window, whatever) was wanting to claim our heads and I finally went to Grandmas it was calm, she went next door, see I was in the car myself last and it went rolling back and Teri was shreiking she's going in the creek!!! I was shaken up but walked next door to Grandmas then so that I could call work and tell them that I had almost diesd in a sort of car accident that my dad had set up and that would it be ok to be a little late coming back for my break? anyway Grandma went necxt door and there was these things hanging down that wasn't there before, and they were rainbiw shaped decorations, ahrd to explain but the paint was fresh, dripping and she yelle at dad and cussed him out for trying to kill us because that **************** knew that his jumper was messed up and something about checking the brakes. Then I woke up. I went back to sleep, had no more dreams and then I woke up, being late and missing my first bell exam.
We got out early after I got to stay in the nurses office all day, even helping with this girl that had vomited in her classroom, and that was disgusting, thank god I can't smell right now, but hey might as well get used to it, I bet that my lunch would make me throw up faster the anyone else's vomit! I fell asleep, then ended up acting grouchy when woken up (I mean, come on, it was to go out to eat, of course I was irritable!) and then went to explorers, tired but willing, we learned about ventilation, and chimney fires, if you ever have one of those, do not try to put it out with water! Use these things that are called something like chimnex or dry chemiocals to put it out. Or, a better thought, call the fire department and trust them, if you have a qhite carpet and white furniture, they'll even try to protect that by placing tarps around it, I know because in training today I learned to do that. :)
I also learned that maybe I better think about where my room is, I mean, if there is a fire in our kitchen, well, we have a couple of windows down in the basement in the main part, not in the laundry room or the storage room or behind the bar, but there are too small and topo high up, and also underground, so the only way out would be to crawl up the stairs and exit through the kitchen door. Not very safe, huh. If that ever happemed I'd run to the ink in the laundry room, grab a towel or something, run water over it and cover my face to also breath through it, and then I would crawl up stairs to feel the door, and then I would either feel a cool door and go in safely, or a hot one, where I'd have to decide whether to risk it or stay in the basement till I could be rescued. Hopefully since we are all pretty careful I won't have to worry about it.
Ha, I just thought of something to do, see, I still have to do a bunch of things before going to bed, but just for something different and because I'm just strange, I'm going to drink this beer I had and forgot about. If most people knew me, they would look at me and think what is she doing smoking ciggs, or drinking beer? I don't even look likr the type, but I have, and I do, and I will, I like this part of a song I hearrd before, it goes, she's a wild thing with an angels face that's something like what I am. Face it, most people just don't know the real me, my twin even was surprised when I did the first radical or whatever thing, she started telling all of her friends how I went and perced my own ears when my mom wouldn't take me to get them done. I don't see myself as bad, either, with some things, I just do what I want to, maybe it's the control thing. Sometimes, I'll do what I want, when I want and just not vcare aboyt the consequenses. Bye for now, I wrote wy too much! I forgot to say, evenafter eating today sometime I weighed myself, and was so happy, it was the same weight at the doctors,a nd even though I could have been doing better, I still haven't gained anymore yet :):):):):):):):):):):)
I don't know what's going on with me, I'm a nurses's aid and I want to be an emergency medical technician, emt, yet I have it in my mind that besides the eating disorder, I'm healthy. I think I'm wrong with that, lately I have been so sluggish and tiired, that's an unhealthy sign, and that is most likely from my cold I've had for over a week, and the reason I'm not getting any better besides the fact that mom hasn't picked my prescription up yet, well, because I'm not eating and as tired as I have been, still not sleeping enough.
Yesterday both me and my sister Teri were late to school unexcused. I slept like normal on the couch and just couldn't get up, and Teri slept in the floor in the living with me for a change, because she was hot in her bedroom upstairs, and we slept in, mom had to srive us to school and we were late, and I haven't been late in the longest time when there was hardly a time I wasn't last year. Of course, today, Teri woke me up a few minutes before we needed to catch the bus, I got ready, then layed back down on the couch, thinking I still have one minute, I'll just rest my eyes,.... enough said. I woke up again about 2 hours later, and missed my first bell exam. Mom might as well had me stay home, because I got there when the people were leaving the first exam and going to their second class, and after that we all had to go to our third class and I did, the nurses office, and then the bell rang, I rmeembered that it was lunchtime, I won't go into details there, I felt really bad because I went to the cafeteria and brought lunch back, after lunch we only all had a couple of hours left before school was out, and so people took their third bell exam, and I don't have any in the nurses office sinvce I'm an office worker and that's my study hall, and so I got my wish I amde earlier in the year, I said that I wish I could stay in the nurses office all day long, instead of going to regular classes. That is probably the last time I would be in there as an office worker, now that second semester is coming up I get to start next week by my first class being aqautics, and that means that I'll be showing my wonderfully large self in a swimming suit and probably getting to feel so bad that I'll start wishing I could drown myself. No, not really.
OHMYGOSH Teri justsaid goodnight, and I LOVE YOU!!! I hope she's feeling allright, that's a rare occurance coming from her. Oh, but I love her, too and told her so. I said goodnight, then I love you, sweet deams, speaking of,...
I was miserable, I couldn't sleep last night, as usual, but I was sneezing a lot and crap, decided to dress up at school today so got this nice oufit ready, and the last time I looked at the clock before finally passing out it was 3:10 a.m. and I must have really gone strauight to REM sleep, because I started waking myself up, shaking from a nightmare that I had, it was about all of this food that I saw in front of me,... no, not really but I have had dreams that bad before, the nightmare was really with me at work, and my dad and Teri, Grandma and older sister, delores, it was strange, here's what I wrote after I got up from it and looked at the clock again, 3:44 that time and told mom all about it, I was like, oh my god, mom!!!! I said, I was asleep, I promise, I'm not just still awake, I had this nightmare,..... don't use it against dad in court,,,.......... here goes: now, this will be a long entry, and I don't care if anyone like you, sasha writes long comments,...
3:10 I fell asleep and now it's 3:45, dad- I was working at wendys, saw Diana and everyone (Diana is a manager) there and dad, well, I walked next door to go on break from wendys, which was Grandmas and anyone, Teri I and him get in his car (the him is my dad) he had to check something and the car rolled backwards I was in back w/Teri and grabbed her head because I could see the back windshield (window, whatever) was wanting to claim our heads and I finally went to Grandmas it was calm, she went next door, see I was in the car myself last and it went rolling back and Teri was shreiking she's going in the creek!!! I was shaken up but walked next door to Grandmas then so that I could call work and tell them that I had almost diesd in a sort of car accident that my dad had set up and that would it be ok to be a little late coming back for my break? anyway Grandma went necxt door and there was these things hanging down that wasn't there before, and they were rainbiw shaped decorations, ahrd to explain but the paint was fresh, dripping and she yelle at dad and cussed him out for trying to kill us because that **************** knew that his jumper was messed up and something about checking the brakes. Then I woke up. I went back to sleep, had no more dreams and then I woke up, being late and missing my first bell exam.
We got out early after I got to stay in the nurses office all day, even helping with this girl that had vomited in her classroom, and that was disgusting, thank god I can't smell right now, but hey might as well get used to it, I bet that my lunch would make me throw up faster the anyone else's vomit! I fell asleep, then ended up acting grouchy when woken up (I mean, come on, it was to go out to eat, of course I was irritable!) and then went to explorers, tired but willing, we learned about ventilation, and chimney fires, if you ever have one of those, do not try to put it out with water! Use these things that are called something like chimnex or dry chemiocals to put it out. Or, a better thought, call the fire department and trust them, if you have a qhite carpet and white furniture, they'll even try to protect that by placing tarps around it, I know because in training today I learned to do that. :)
I also learned that maybe I better think about where my room is, I mean, if there is a fire in our kitchen, well, we have a couple of windows down in the basement in the main part, not in the laundry room or the storage room or behind the bar, but there are too small and topo high up, and also underground, so the only way out would be to crawl up the stairs and exit through the kitchen door. Not very safe, huh. If that ever happemed I'd run to the ink in the laundry room, grab a towel or something, run water over it and cover my face to also breath through it, and then I would crawl up stairs to feel the door, and then I would either feel a cool door and go in safely, or a hot one, where I'd have to decide whether to risk it or stay in the basement till I could be rescued. Hopefully since we are all pretty careful I won't have to worry about it.
Ha, I just thought of something to do, see, I still have to do a bunch of things before going to bed, but just for something different and because I'm just strange, I'm going to drink this beer I had and forgot about. If most people knew me, they would look at me and think what is she doing smoking ciggs, or drinking beer? I don't even look likr the type, but I have, and I do, and I will, I like this part of a song I hearrd before, it goes, she's a wild thing with an angels face that's something like what I am. Face it, most people just don't know the real me, my twin even was surprised when I did the first radical or whatever thing, she started telling all of her friends how I went and perced my own ears when my mom wouldn't take me to get them done. I don't see myself as bad, either, with some things, I just do what I want to, maybe it's the control thing. Sometimes, I'll do what I want, when I want and just not vcare aboyt the consequenses. Bye for now, I wrote wy too much! I forgot to say, evenafter eating today sometime I weighed myself, and was so happy, it was the same weight at the doctors,a nd even though I could have been doing better, I still haven't gained anymore yet :):):):):):):):):):):)