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I fell asleep last night around 1 maybe, and I couldn't get comfortable for anything, I mean, I'm used to the couch and could fall asleep easily on it, even when I'm not exhausted but it was so hard to yesterday and when I finally did, I was like in this weird light sleep. Not too long after I finally did get to sleep, Brian came and said mary and I said hmm because I wasn't fully asleep, he asked me if I wanted to have sex with him I knew then that mom must have gone to sleep, I sat up, rbbed my euyes, looked at the clock, it was about 3, I'm like what time is it? No, I'm sleepy still night. Then he left, he said ok and I woke up more, thought about it for a minute and went into the family room, he said too late. I already jacked off. I was more embarazsed that I almost changed my mind. We're strange, we don't really care about each other, yet we'll have sex when our hormones want it. What if we do have a baby? How will our relationship affect it? Now I'm scared. Plus I think that I have an infection, and so I'm going to have to get antibotics, soon, so that in a couple of weeks when I can take a test that will be more accurate it'll work better, and also for the poss. baby's sake and my own I need it taken care of.
I'm starting a job tomorrow, being a hostess/cashier. I've also gotten a few new clothes and I'm trying not to overdo it, in case I need bigger clothes soon. I wonder how gaining the extra weight will be for me, I mean, I heard in health class that the average weight gain is 24 pounds. That's terrifying, considering, I know how I'd feel if I gaine that much weight naturally, and so I hope that's not how I'd feel with a baby. I hope I'll be glad to be gaining the weight, which I will do. I'm eating now, ooops, brb