You know, it's a funny thing about life.
Things can be going along just as you think they should and suddenly, just to see if you were paying attention, everything changes.
EVERYTHING.
Hub Man has decided that he no longer requires my services.
On the cusp of my "golden years", I find myself starting over from less than square one.
It's enough to give one serious pause.
It's taken a while for me to find it, but my sense of humor is beginning to stir. The poor dear was knocked senseless for quite some time. It doesn't help that I relied heavily on Hub Man's seemingly endless reservoir of humor. I guess I'll need to beef up my own inherent bits and pieces and cobble together a new pool to draw from during difficult times.
And trust me my dear friends, these ARE difficult times.
The one thing that has kept me from falling straight into "the pit of despair" [ref. The Princess Bride] is the astonishing outpouring of love, prayers, and support from friends and family, far and near. I am humbled beyond words at the acts of kindness, generosity of spirit, and tender words that have come my way. You are all my heros.
I'm trying hard to find my footing in this altered reality. The landscape is unfamiliar and my center of gravity is skewed. For whether or not he ever perceived it or believed it himself, Hub Man really WAS the hub around which I was spinning. I am trying with all my might to figure out how to dance in this world on my own. Right now I'm stepping on my own toes and skinning my own shins, but I have faith that sometime in the future, God willing, I will not only dance….. but fly.
(I will in no way tolerate any sarcastic remarks at this time. It is forbidden.)
Tea and scones, that's what we need. I'll put the kettle on. What kind would you like deary?
I think I need a hug.
Tea and scones, that's what we need. I'll put the kettle on. What kind would you like deary?
I think I need a hug.