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What's On YOUR To-Do List?
Sun Jan 05 2014

  Over the last several days I've been writing up a list of things I want to do this year. Sounds simple enough right? Apparently not. When I got the bulk of it done, I looked it over and realized that it all looked really…. safe. Sort of mediocre. Well, maybe not mediocre, but definitely low expectation items. Miss Tick left a comment on here a couple of days ago, which included these words: "for if our dreams don’t scare us, they are not big enough." I've been thinking about it ever since. It's made me think about 'dreams' in general. What does that really mean? Daydreams? Desires? Pipe dreams? Wishful thinking? Goals? Goals sounds so businesslike. Feh. Daydreams … that sounds like something lazy. Pipe dreams… I don't smoke a pipe. Wishful thinking… sort of reminds me of the psychiatric slant on things… they call it 'magical thinking'. Not good for your mental health. (What mental health?) I'm not listening……! Desires. Now there I think we come a little closer to the heart of the matter. Desires of the heart. Maybe the reason I'm not writing down big, grandiose things on my yearly to-do list is because in so many ways, I HAVE the desires of my heart already. Peace. Contentment. Friends. Family. Access to wool and all its creative potential. A patch of earth to tend and keep.  Connection to nature. Not tame nature either, wild, unpredictable, a little dangerous nature.  [Did I mention the bear tracks I saw on my last trip to the creek?] The one thing I think that DOES scare me a little is writing. I've been struggling with Violet. I don't know why I should be afraid. It's only a story after all. Just a little tale. And honestly, my writing here on the blog has not exactly been all that exciting either. Many pardons. I'm in a little funk about it because I spent a few spare moments reading some of the stuff I wrote here a few years ago, and it sounds way better than what's on here lately. So, I'm contemplating what it would look like if this was not only the year of "No Excuses", but "My Year of Blogging Dangerously". A friend and I are going to read the second book in The Artist's Way series called, "Walking In This World".  We start in a few weeks. Perhaps this will uncork the bottle of my writer's genie. We shall see. (God save me from all this 'new beginning' stuff.) Too bad for you ( ), God is the AUTHOR of new beginnings. Ergo, let us begin. (Oh crap.)   lime wild            
3 Comments
  • From:
    Mamallama (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Jan 05 2014
    Wow. The second Artist's Way...again. Good for you. I'm going to try "Life Makeover's with my Auntie P and maybe take a peek at "Health Code." I think that's the name. Right? The other thing on the top of my list is a hysterectomy (sp) :)' All these new things Never let it be said I go into a new year without a {{{bang}}}!!
  • From:
    Dancing Star (Legacy)
    On:
    Sun Jan 05 2014
    Good on you for deliberately stepping outside your comfort zone. We all need to do this to grow. Good luck, looking forward to reading this dangerous blogging! Going to be a big year of change here but the first big change for me is to NOT make a list because the first thing on it for me would be "let go of the need to organize and control everything and go with the flow". I'm struggling already but determined!
  • From:
    Misstick (Legacy)
    On:
    Mon Jan 06 2014
    the way I see it is that your heart's desires are what you have dreamed of before...so in a way they are of course your dreams came true. And that's what dreams do. Now, imagine when we'll get all our dreams come true, what would we do next? granted, we are entitled to enjoy a moment, but I think, what you may find eventually that your mind will be searching out something new to dream about ;-) and hey, I don't believe dreams have to be written in to-do list. otherwise they might turn into tasks and lose their wonder. what works for me is - imagining myself in a future. the way I want to see myself - how do I look, in what environment I am, what do I do...impossible as it may be...that is a dream...now, once I've dreamed out a picture, my mind gets busy with finding the ways that will bring me closer to what I dreamed of, I don't even have to outline the ways, it is all happening on unconcious level. a dream should not be about what we would be happy with, but should be about self. who are you in your own ideal world - that is a dream...I once came across an interesting mind's challenge: write a wish list of what you want without thinking too hard, just few things that come to mind first. then give yourself 5-10 minutes away from it, return, re-read and ask yourself a question to every point of your list: what could be even better then that? add the new desires, leave for a while and do the same again...you'll be surprised to see how what you thought would be the ultimate wish can be so much more...the only thing you have to remember - you do not have to do anything about the last version of the wish list to make it come true. because it will...not nessesary the way you thought it out, but one way or another you'll notice things happening reflecting the dreams you made...just my 2cents ;-)