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Got to remember that gambling and taking chance on anything and I – incompatible and this is – for the term of life…Got to stop taking a blind chance and hope to get desirable. Why oh why in that Simpson’s kinder-surprise egg I’ve managed to get the ugliest character – Itchy with the bloody axe?!!!...
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It is strange that when you mobilized for dealing with urgent things, mind is mobilized for any other side things as well – thinking flows clear, concentrated and in all directions, useful or useless, still - direct...
But once you let yourself to relax, the brain activity hybernates as well. After the problem has been sorted, our whole department looks like the land of Nod – one need to poke another to get them to move…Even making a coffee demanded a lot of effort…Creative calls bypassed me too…Friday Afternoon Mode of Operation...
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Driving back home on a dark motorway, a question came into mind: what would happened if I’d got into accident and died?...I mean – ok, family and friends – they all will be informed pretty soon…but what about web space? On line life means so much to me, yet in the event of my physical death there will be no trace left of me in wwwspace…
Don’t get me wrong – I’m not upset or thinking of death or else…actually, I’m surprisingly tranquil with clear conscience. I am comfortable and easy-tempered…Just I did experienced that twice – when the net friends gone “missing” not because they’ve blocked me out, but because they actually died in real life…How I know? Well…trust me – I do…
And so I thought: how sad it would be to go “missing” from people, who don’t even have the privilege to know if anything happened…Some of us do find real friends over the net, there are no reasons not to believe that we can. But what to do, if special someone disappears without trace? The idea of “dissolving” utterly is somewhat disturbing…who would let my friends know, if I’m gone? To think of it…on the net we can: live a rich life, laugh, cry, find love, lose or find sanity, be more real then we are. Yet when we go, there are no footprints left in this sand…
Dejected...
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Strange song on the car radio on my way back - Us and Them. Pink Floyd...Regardless that I love it so much, this is an unusual choice for the "drivehome" radio program, don't you think?...