So kill me for I wanted to talk. I wanted to talk and there was no one to listen…so I talked…strange how sometimes our words become stuck inside for long time, like for ever. And then suddenly they burst through the silence and we are having difficulties to shut up…and it doesn’t even have to be a meaningless talk, not informative and neither making sense…just the talk for the sake of saying words…any words…as many words as there are there…anything, except of awkward silence…
I also want to thank those who commented on revolving doors idea, publicly and in private. Was interesting to see how different people picked up different perceptions suggested. And while today I didn’t have any issues with the doors in our office, I’ve played with the thought a little…I imagined if I was to read something like this in another place. Which option would I pick, that will touch upon my sore spot…out of all the potential fears it was the fear of going back to the place where we’ve just come from…the illusion of walking forward and a sudden discovery that you haven’t moved at all…to me even going around in revolving doors seems a better option – it is just a pause, time given to ascertain if you want to get in or out…however, if one determined to get through and for some reason missed the right exit, they can end up back at the entrance again…I found it strange that I think of such things at this particular moment, when the doors were there all along but I was using the entrance next to them, the easy option of authentication through the security fob. There was never a notion to use the revolving one until that day…Sometimes I can’t figure out if it is stuff that happened around me, happened for a reason or is it me imagining that random stuff that happened around me, have a reason to it…it seems like stuff happened to me all the time…that couldn’t be right…right?
But in the meanwhile…it is Christmas already! Well, not Christmas, ok, don’t panic that you haven’t got all your Christmas shopping done yet. But the official Christmas came to the town where I live in a shape of Christmas Fair. Hurray to that, coz Christmas Fair means – lots of people, rides, flashing things, balloons and all other local excitements. That’s what I love the most about small towns: when it is a street party, it is A Big Party and everybody is so enthusiastic! This year I added a green hat to my collection of Santa’s hats, bunny ears and Deeley Boppers. I just could not NOT buy her – she was so…brilliantly Green! Accidentaly today is the 1st of December already! the official Winter's month and look what I'm writing of - Christmas?! See what I mean about "stuff happenning to me"?
So, Happy Start of Christmas Countdown, everyone! It won't be too long until the madness will be over... 
I also want to thank those who commented on revolving doors idea, publicly and in private. Was interesting to see how different people picked up different perceptions suggested. And while today I didn’t have any issues with the doors in our office, I’ve played with the thought a little…I imagined if I was to read something like this in another place. Which option would I pick, that will touch upon my sore spot…out of all the potential fears it was the fear of going back to the place where we’ve just come from…the illusion of walking forward and a sudden discovery that you haven’t moved at all…to me even going around in revolving doors seems a better option – it is just a pause, time given to ascertain if you want to get in or out…however, if one determined to get through and for some reason missed the right exit, they can end up back at the entrance again…I found it strange that I think of such things at this particular moment, when the doors were there all along but I was using the entrance next to them, the easy option of authentication through the security fob. There was never a notion to use the revolving one until that day…Sometimes I can’t figure out if it is stuff that happened around me, happened for a reason or is it me imagining that random stuff that happened around me, have a reason to it…it seems like stuff happened to me all the time…that couldn’t be right…right?
But in the meanwhile…it is Christmas already! Well, not Christmas, ok, don’t panic that you haven’t got all your Christmas shopping done yet. But the official Christmas came to the town where I live in a shape of Christmas Fair. Hurray to that, coz Christmas Fair means – lots of people, rides, flashing things, balloons and all other local excitements. That’s what I love the most about small towns: when it is a street party, it is A Big Party and everybody is so enthusiastic! This year I added a green hat to my collection of Santa’s hats, bunny ears and Deeley Boppers. I just could not NOT buy her – she was so…brilliantly Green! Accidentaly today is the 1st of December already! the official Winter's month and look what I'm writing of - Christmas?! See what I mean about "stuff happenning to me"?
So, Happy Start of Christmas Countdown, everyone! It won't be too long until the madness will be over...