Don't Trust The Snowman - He'll Melt On You!
Wed Jan 24 2007

Today we woke up to the SNOW! Yep, the real snow and it was like a “good” snow, as opposed to wet and melty one. As I was grabbing it in huge piles off the roof of my car and it was like playing snowballs, like in childhood, I thought of getting to work and building a snowman and having true celebration of some resemblance of the winter. (we didn’t have snow in this place for at least two years now!) As I was driving towards Oxford, the landscape became more gloomy, the fresh whites off the fields turned into grey-ish shade, like unwashed t-shirt of teenager and of course there was no sign of snow around the office at all! What a pity – my snowman dream didn’t come true…but guess, this is life: fairy tales never stay for long enough to enjoy them fully…

In addition to my previous musings about Trust…I’ve been thinking and then thinking more…and I think now that I have to agree with the comment about our own responsibility for our own trust. It is true that we do our judgement on what to trust and to whom. We can not possibly know if our judgement is adequate. People do what they do. Instead of sulking at someone that I trusted and they betrayed my trust, I should be really asking myself: have I imposed my trust onto someone, who might never need such a burden? If I make a decision to trust, then I should take the responsibility for consequences.

The whole other issue – when we opened to the others, do we expect them to be same opened back? Or do we share out without a need to share in?
More and more it looks like in most cases we trust our secrets to those who we think might give us positive reaction. When share out, we expect a feedback which allows us to share more…or to share less if the feedback is not what we expected. Strange thing it is –sharing, eh?
4 Comments
  • From:
    Razzenne (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Jan 24 2007
    beautiful svetlana

    ew those russian winters must be worth a few winter tales
    do tell sometime
    our winters are getting milder and milder
    the country where I lived for two years except weekends used to be so snowy
    one morning I opened the door and the snow was up to the frame
    so many events occured in my visit to the country but when I first think of my country living well all other memories are obliterated
    it is just snow snow snow snow and more snow

    yes there is something magical about snow it makes you want to play and build a snow man.

    my time as a performance poet really changed my views about sharing and intimacy to get up infront of a room with 200 strangers and share your most intimate thoughts was exhilirating it really does raise you higher
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Jan 24 2007
    That personal responsibility ... principles before personalities is a biggy at the AA mtgs..
    Oh yeah.. I'm becoming savvy with the lingo.
    anyway.. I wanted to tell you something and now I do not know what???

    Dad got put in hospital today.. He is safe there.. and I'm releaved...
    also got the judge to state.. I'm no longer Kody's guardian...
    Oh.. what a day it's been...
    I wish I could ramble my way into remembering what I came here to tell you.................
  • From:
    Dreamerbooks2003 (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Jan 24 2007
    of course I remembered as soon as I signed out...
    It was a question for you
    totally unrelated to todays posts.. but... I was wondering if you know... okay on deardiary.. you have the manage friends deal.. and I have about 50 diaries that are no longer even diaries.. so my question......( which I did write to the owner and the dd question center.. but didn't hear back.). is.. how do I delete these diaries from my friends list.... i know ... it is my own personal friends list that no one can see.. but why have all these diaries listed that are not there any more????.. people move on or drop out of site or change diaries and leave one to open another.. Why i don't know... but anyway.. do you know how to delete someone from my list????
    Thanx.. and have a lovely snowbright day.. I love snow flakes.. it is driving in it that is hazardous....
    be careful
    hugs
  • From:
    Pragmatist (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Jan 26 2007
    Expectations of others are usually flawed. I try to be careful about what I expect.

    I think snow is beautiful if I don't have to be in it, drive in it, shovel it, or otherwise pay attention to it. Snowmen and snowangels are for whoever enjoys them. Not me.

    Shalom