Watching other's relationships around me, in real life and what's been shared here, I can't help but ask myself: do I really wish to get into this crap ever again? It would be a lie to say I prefer to be on my own, yet it also would be wrong to say I want to share my life with another. oh I don't know what is it that i want. But noticing what others have doesn't make me envious. Any relationships are hardships. you'd think you've got it all perfect, yet every day something small or smallest might be happening and deposite the bitter aftertaste like a scale to the kettle...eventually it has to be cleaned or you wil lnever get a boiling point.
Generally people are selfish. Of course we are. We all can sing sweetly our promises and turn deaf when called to fulfill them. x got some unexpected tax return postdated for two years. And I can understand he wouldn't think to ask me if I need help. But I'm hurt he didn't think of his son, didn't ask him or even just offer, Mike could do with some extra money, in the end of a day these are not something x expected at all. Nice surprise in a size of a couple month's payslip. More and more I am dissilusioned about a man who used to be the centre of my world for so long. Was it him who changed? Or was it my eyes that started to see all in another light...enough of this...
A thought occured to me recently. It came upon watching a movie scene where two male friends share their knowledge about how to know what to expect from a lady based on her choice of wine when you dine her. I found the idea interesting enough to play with it a little. You never know where a single thought might take you. I'm now curious does the wine affect the "afterdinner" intimacy. I try to imagine how it might be in alternative worlds, under the influence of different spirits...it's interesting