Well, here we are. Finally 2011 is over and done with. And I am glad it is. Wasn't the best year for me. Few things that came and changed my life right when I was just getting used to it. Some of it was sort of an expected change...for sooner or for later. Some happenned as complete blast, unexpected shook up to what seemed like a stable system. And once again we are presented with the challenges. They say we are always presented with the ones we are ready to deal with. I'd like to think this is true. I'd give up before even trying otherwise. So many people like to make New Year Resolutions. It's all about changes. We do like to think we need to set a cut off point when we will begin to be something else, different from what we are. We tend to think we will change to be better. As if we are not good as we are already. This idea of resolutions amuzes me. If you understand you need to change something within yourself, why wait a year before setting out to actually do it.
Believing that good things come to those who wait is such an outdated religion and I am looking for the reason to stay true to this belief. How long will I hold this fort against all the odds...how long will I wait before giving in to the sceptical side. I feel the foundations of belief slipping away. And I wonder what will I become if I let it happenned eventually.
Perhaps, more of a homage to the dreamer lost somewhere on the life's ways, a tribute to the memory of that side of me that I was in total peace with, my New Year's Resolution would have to be - To Stay The Same. I am not happy with the changes in my perception of the world, not happy with what have I become. I do not like this change, I do not want to change in this particular way. Therefore I wish to stay what I am. Is it achievable at all? Who knows. But then how often New Year's Resolutions do come true anyway.
Happy New Year to me and to all of you who is reading this right now. Let's make the most of what we've got.