My dance friends organised a Rocky Horror themed dance party on Friday the 13th. It seemed like a good occasion for a little bit of chiller. It took me a week or so to come up with the final approved outfit. It was one of those fundamental question of does my bum look too big in that. In this case it was does my bum look too naked in that. I must admit, the Rocky Horror cult has passed me by in my sweet soviet years and I had to watch the show as a homework for the party. The shocking images and frantic search for something reasonably revealing yet reasonably modest. People did leave teasing comments on the fb page for the event, implying they’re going to be bold and brave and very rockyhorrory. I read the comments with a pinch of salt and labelled them as bluff. So in a strive to have that modestly lewd look I ended up losing the lewd from it all. So much for the talks, huh...the party was wonderful and i enjoyed it very much. Yet i was also upset as well. I regretted that I didn’t go too far. Or not even far enough. I was somewhere in the middle between people who made an effort and those who didn’t bother at all...boo hoo. A pure disappointment to myself. The guys were just great! they did turned up in stocking and suspenders. There was a French maid’s squad, the trousers were absent, the skirts were shockingly short and the makeups were disturbing. It was a rocking horror by all means. Two things played it down for me though. A discovery that, apparently, I have a barrier for lewdness and it is rather low. I can have lots of wonderfully fearless ideas in my head, but once I try it on, they suddenly become “euuuhhh” ideas. They say we are our worst critics and boy, isn’t this true?! I see red lipstick on the other ladies and they have that female fatale look. I put red lipstick to my lips and I look like a sleazy tart. I can’t imagine dancing in suspenders and yet admired those who did. They looked so gracious despite of looking so naked. So generally I felt overdressed at the party of the bare asses. And I failed miserably to be bold&brave. I’m not sure which one upset me more.