Ok, so it's after mid night here. Well, I haven't been able to write an entry for the day yet, so who cares! I ate today and feel like a real stuffed pig,... I ouldn't help it, my ed for the day I guess is COED compulsive over eating disorder, it's where you eat a lot and you do not throw up, unlike what bulimia really is, where you binge and then purge, the binge and purge disease, I have more what is a/b bits of anorexia and bulimia. I wish I just had anorexia thouggh, life would be so simple then. Hey, if you have one, might as well get to choose which one! I'll need a car, and I'll choose what kind I get.
I have some rotten cold sores. They are horrible!!! and I want some pop to drink really, really bad! I;'m an addict, just like people are with coffee, I have to have pop!!! I'm ready to sneak out just to buy a pop. I will later probably. Till then I'll try to make do with my last couple of ciggs. :(
Ok, let's see, I woke up around time for my counselor to come, i listened to the messages on my voice mail, and called steve back, my t, we planned on going to the zoo after my docs appointment on thursday, he knows I like animals so well, we'll have fun, i didn't have the heart to tell him that i'm not much of a zoo person though, but we'll have a good day, and it'll probably be ur last outing, maybe not the last time that I see him and if I have anything to say, not the last time I talk to him, either :( I like him a lot, in fact, in a non sexual way, (of course) I love him, like a friend, i mean, he's been there through some of my toughest times, and I've gotton to know and like him pretty well after about two years of therapy. So i talked to him for a little bit, and then i called another counselor on her cell phone, and I talked to her, and she came over, I packed a little, then quit and we playe a game, which i played again with mom later, i beat them both. Then i was pretty bored, played nintendo, made dinner, ate it, along with my turnovers I baked earlier and couldn't keep out of my mind, a weird cookie I tried to bake, et ecetra. i am very thirsty and din't have any energy to throw it up. i need more laxes, I'm gaining weight I've been working on losing,...!!!!!!! I may see my teacher tomorrow, I need to be awake in order to, and I have a lot planned, like m@p, explorers, oH! I found out today, my advisor called and left a message, I'm an officer for it! I'm post lutiniet, i can't spell that right though. I am so happy about that,... it won't start yet but I'm persistant enough to ake sure it'll happen soon. Now more then ever I need to make sure I still get there and stuf, I have more responsibilities now. Did I spell that righ? it doesn't look right,...I'm going to stay uptonight, just for the fun of it, it's too late to go to sleep now anyway. I think I'll start working more on my book, at least. I ned to go, nothing else happened today. I miss David, that's all, and I feel so fat it hurts almost. I will NOT eat tomorrow! (I hope)
I have some rotten cold sores. They are horrible!!! and I want some pop to drink really, really bad! I;'m an addict, just like people are with coffee, I have to have pop!!! I'm ready to sneak out just to buy a pop. I will later probably. Till then I'll try to make do with my last couple of ciggs. :(
Ok, let's see, I woke up around time for my counselor to come, i listened to the messages on my voice mail, and called steve back, my t, we planned on going to the zoo after my docs appointment on thursday, he knows I like animals so well, we'll have fun, i didn't have the heart to tell him that i'm not much of a zoo person though, but we'll have a good day, and it'll probably be ur last outing, maybe not the last time that I see him and if I have anything to say, not the last time I talk to him, either :( I like him a lot, in fact, in a non sexual way, (of course) I love him, like a friend, i mean, he's been there through some of my toughest times, and I've gotton to know and like him pretty well after about two years of therapy. So i talked to him for a little bit, and then i called another counselor on her cell phone, and I talked to her, and she came over, I packed a little, then quit and we playe a game, which i played again with mom later, i beat them both. Then i was pretty bored, played nintendo, made dinner, ate it, along with my turnovers I baked earlier and couldn't keep out of my mind, a weird cookie I tried to bake, et ecetra. i am very thirsty and din't have any energy to throw it up. i need more laxes, I'm gaining weight I've been working on losing,...!!!!!!! I may see my teacher tomorrow, I need to be awake in order to, and I have a lot planned, like m@p, explorers, oH! I found out today, my advisor called and left a message, I'm an officer for it! I'm post lutiniet, i can't spell that right though. I am so happy about that,... it won't start yet but I'm persistant enough to ake sure it'll happen soon. Now more then ever I need to make sure I still get there and stuf, I have more responsibilities now. Did I spell that righ? it doesn't look right,...I'm going to stay uptonight, just for the fun of it, it's too late to go to sleep now anyway. I think I'll start working more on my book, at least. I ned to go, nothing else happened today. I miss David, that's all, and I feel so fat it hurts almost. I will NOT eat tomorrow! (I hope)