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Thursday, 8-16-01
Thu Aug 16 2001

i love mary and catlan needs to back off BARBIE and im marys baby for the night
and if i leave mary alone i can be her babby
love cillllllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy billlllllllllllllllly where not gay btw mary is dume
******************************************************************************** ok, I made her type that last part Cilly Billy (Priscilla) is ten years old, my second cousin
Ok, I woke up, ada took me to a meeting at the new office with a new counselor and mom made me feel bad, ada didn't. IU sat by ada. mom later said in an arqumen about driving she'll lie and say we had fifty hours pratice, well, I asked her if she'll be able to identify me when I get in a wreck for being allowed to drive without really knowing how, that's if I can mange to get my lisece at least.I can't spell lisence, as in drvers liscense, but I can now spell lieutenant right, I think!!! I practiced it and practiced it, you'll have to take my word for it that I'm not cheating now!
So ada and I go to lunch, I ate two pieces of pizza at the meeting, 2 hotdogs at lunch drank pop and didn't for some stupid reason purge, I don't think I have ever binged before, like whenever I have, I always threw it up!!!
So I'm upset, David told me to call at 4, we had good plaans, I missed him and wanted him and wanted to at leastjust see him again, but no. So I'm upset about that, eating too much and not throwing it up and seeing my mother, ann. I go home to adas and instead of self mulilation, I cleaned the bathroom, which I wish I threw up in. I pnicked later on, around 4 a.m. friday, i haven't gone to sleep yet, depressed, couldn't find the 30 laxes I knew I hid somewhere in my room. I hate having such good hiding spots that I can't find things! I fell asleep, exhausted and upset about not finding them. :(


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