Hi!
Let's see, last night I didn't sleep at all so I was already up when it was time for my mom to take me to my first job at 8, then she picked me up again and that was at about 3:30 and she drove me to my second job which is my permanent one and I worked there till 9, I am so sleepy!!!! I didn't think I would make it in time.
Not too much happening here, the police haven't caught my, well, I don't know how to desribe him, we were more of aquintances, or friends, we didn't really go out ever! Rapist? yeah, that's what he is to me.
I want to try and go to a friends tomorrow, I hope I can, I ran into her the other day and felt bad as usual that I just couldn't go to her house. She wants to talk about Star, the code name we made up for the rapist before, I told her about it because she's my friend mi amigo and it was her quincy anos that I went to before I came home on Fathers day that night and he came and did his buisness, and he said Hasta Luego when he was leaving while I was throwing up from being upset and checking the blood that went down my legs. Hasta Luego means see you later, he has not seen me since. Thank you, God, I don't know what I would do if I did see him,...it's too scary to think about.
Well, on to some brighter things, I have a few days off from both jobs coming up, and one is ending soon, and I'll have some nice hard earned paychecks :) They will help for court.
I also see a counselor soon, on next monday for my eating disorder and the rape, she is going to laugh in my face I know, because I can hardly have it called an eating disorder, besides being relieved IT has a name at least, It's more of a friend and sometimes an enemy.
Then,... I get to do the same stuff again like the actual rape and the rape test, i get to see a gynacologist!!! Woweeee!!!!!!! That's on a Saturday, means I will ahve to wake up around 7 a.m. to spread my legs and keep them in stirrups. Boy, as mean as I hate to be, I know she's going to have a hard time with me! It's hard to do that when you'e, well, me! :(
My plans right now are to relax, find clothes for job tomorrow, and then take a nice bath/shower, then go to the lovely place called BED which for me is the couch, but hey! It'll do, it's really comfortable when I'm so tired especially!!! Night all!!! Sweet Dreams!!!!!
Let's see, last night I didn't sleep at all so I was already up when it was time for my mom to take me to my first job at 8, then she picked me up again and that was at about 3:30 and she drove me to my second job which is my permanent one and I worked there till 9, I am so sleepy!!!! I didn't think I would make it in time.
Not too much happening here, the police haven't caught my, well, I don't know how to desribe him, we were more of aquintances, or friends, we didn't really go out ever! Rapist? yeah, that's what he is to me.
I want to try and go to a friends tomorrow, I hope I can, I ran into her the other day and felt bad as usual that I just couldn't go to her house. She wants to talk about Star, the code name we made up for the rapist before, I told her about it because she's my friend mi amigo and it was her quincy anos that I went to before I came home on Fathers day that night and he came and did his buisness, and he said Hasta Luego when he was leaving while I was throwing up from being upset and checking the blood that went down my legs. Hasta Luego means see you later, he has not seen me since. Thank you, God, I don't know what I would do if I did see him,...it's too scary to think about.
Well, on to some brighter things, I have a few days off from both jobs coming up, and one is ending soon, and I'll have some nice hard earned paychecks :) They will help for court.
I also see a counselor soon, on next monday for my eating disorder and the rape, she is going to laugh in my face I know, because I can hardly have it called an eating disorder, besides being relieved IT has a name at least, It's more of a friend and sometimes an enemy.
Then,... I get to do the same stuff again like the actual rape and the rape test, i get to see a gynacologist!!! Woweeee!!!!!!! That's on a Saturday, means I will ahve to wake up around 7 a.m. to spread my legs and keep them in stirrups. Boy, as mean as I hate to be, I know she's going to have a hard time with me! It's hard to do that when you'e, well, me! :(
My plans right now are to relax, find clothes for job tomorrow, and then take a nice bath/shower, then go to the lovely place called BED which for me is the couch, but hey! It'll do, it's really comfortable when I'm so tired especially!!! Night all!!! Sweet Dreams!!!!!