Monday 11/29/10
Today i woke up with a dreadful feeling that it was late, i missed therapy and that something was out of sorts. it was J's first day of seeing the girls on new times. He didn't show up. I ended up spending the day and night with him.
I realize that he can't even give that little bit. He managed to miss the 1 out of 2 hours he was going to be able to see the girls. He made me think that this plan was too much to expect from him. Day one and I had to learn this again. I need to let go all the way.
It's not right here (S and T's). I don't like how I have been living. I want to make changes for the better. I have so much I need to do!
Today i woke up with a dreadful feeling that it was late, i missed therapy and that something was out of sorts. it was J's first day of seeing the girls on new times. He didn't show up. I ended up spending the day and night with him.
I realize that he can't even give that little bit. He managed to miss the 1 out of 2 hours he was going to be able to see the girls. He made me think that this plan was too much to expect from him. Day one and I had to learn this again. I need to let go all the way.
It's not right here (S and T's). I don't like how I have been living. I want to make changes for the better. I have so much I need to do!