It was my Dad's birthday today, and we didn't plan anything like some dinner, I couldn't drive there because I have been sick and I have a burned out headlight. I really hope that he had some fun today and that it was special for him, anyways. I wish I could have done something today, but will try to organize a dinner for sometime later when everyone can get together and celebrate. He is 73 years old.
I am waiting on the girls to get back home. I have a surprise for them and I am really missing them, too. I let them stay the night with J's parents to mostly give them a chance to visit, and also because I haven't been that much fun from being sick lately.
I made a new friend, someone who used to struggle with ED but is recovered now and very outspoken about how good it feels to be recovered. I hope to get to meet her in April!
I b and p'd twice last night. Around 8 in the morning I was still up, and binged again though I held it in by considering it my breakfast for the day, also my start over meal. I ate another pack of pop tarts and finished them off, and tried out the new pancakes and sausages on a stick with my neew microwave. I ate more then I would want to for a meal, but I was ok with it.
I haven't been feeling well and I was by myself today and just didn't bother to really try and eat lunch. Before you knew it it was dinnertime, and so I took myself out. I ate about half of the dinner, drank 3 daquries, and I felt like I was going to bust so the first thing that happened was I threw up. I am not sure if it was purging, or just like getting rid of stuff out of habit. I know I normally wouldn't feel so sick after drinking. Sitting at the bar by myself trying to make myself eat some food was really horrible. The drinking was just to do something different and more adult like while I am alone without the kids. I normally don't drink at all.
I think the girls are here now so more later! :) PS I just became a member!