I have been sick and ignoring it for the most part. It's Sunday now, and I slept in and missed church and I am really am upset about that. Next came sister #1. My twin, Teri. I called her, and she was mad and informed me about how she tried to call me so many times to let me know that Serenity had a birthday party and how I have missed it now, because that one time I tried to call her back she must have been in the shower or something but I think she thought I was just sitting around my house waiting for her to call me for again after not seeing or hearing from her in a LONG time but no, I didn't have any new messages so I didn't bother to check the caller ID especially since I was sitting around at home for so logn without anyone calling last night. So, she's critcizing me and mad and I missed out.
Sister #2, Delores calls me right away after we hung up. She calls just to tell me that she knows how to find good deals and she can help me find a hotel and flight package for cheaper if I'll let her, just had to give her the details. The only thing I am worried about with her is she tends to go overboard sometime and she also feels left out. I guess I worry that now that she knows when, where, why, and all that she might try to come with me, and after I went to NYC on vacation with her years ago I vow to never attempt any kind of long trip like that with her again for my sanity's sake. I was on meds that made me crazy, she drove me crazy, situations that kept happening,.. it was bad, a long week and I almost went to Bellview while there, where they tried to take santa from the movie miracle on 34rd street.
So, I appreciate and want the help, I am just worried. I just want it to go smoothly and simply and I love taking care of things myself and knowing that I did it, too. It gets complicated when too many people are involved, and I need to make it as easy as possible for me.
I feel stupid but I am going to urgent care today to get help for being sick. I can't take it any longer! I have already suffered way too long and I think I need antibiotics or something. I told Trinity that I was sick and thinking I needed to go to the doctors and she said that they'll take care of me. I love it, but I would rather them not feel like they have to take care of me, and just wait until I am old and in a nursing home. She brought me an orange, and I think she just wants to show me that she can help, and that she loves me, and I know that. Trinity and I have this weird connection. I have it with her more then anyone. There have been so many times I would just be thinking something, like a song, or what to say next, and it slips out of her mouth as if she was thinking about it then, too. I don't have to explain things too much to her, she seems to just get it most of the time. Emily and I are close in a different way, she acts like I used to and so sometimes I think I am better about knowing whther to hold her, or to punish her based on how she is acting just because I can tell when she really isn't able to do or understand something, and I think I get her for the most part, but she doesn't always get me.
I am going to get in the shower and get us dressed and go to the doctors and if I am ok to go tonight I will try to get some food to take to a tailgate party we have going on at church. I hate that I missed going this morning and will show up fpr the party, that's not how I am usually.