I had to get off really fast from my last entry because Brian came to get me, but I want talk too much about our relationship yet, because something tradgic just happened.
Yesterday, well 11/5/02, two girls that go to our school were in a car accident and got killed instantly. There was a junior and a senior, and the senior is someone that was in a few of my classes, and I was holding a grudge against her for a while. It'ss too late now to apologize, but it helped me a little bit at school earlier, Wed. 11?6?02 when we were spending the day grievbing for them, and were allowed to write to them, and talk about them. I know peoplke of all different ages die everyday, but I can't believe, still, that I wrote to a classmate, and I wrote RIP. I don't know the junior, but I saw her picture, and she is a beautiful 16 year old female. It is going to be so hard for many of us in the next few weeks, yera, et cetera.
We are having our annual senior spirit week at school next week. I bet that Cassie, the senior was looking forward to participating just as much as the rest of us. And Jessica, the junior, She would have gotten to go to her first prom this year. They were not wearing seatbelts, and the rescue workers had no idea who was even driving, it was that bad. They actually lost control, ran into this guy, and crossed the median, and I heard that the car was flipping and stuff. The guy they hit went to the hospital and as released, before we even saw the news cast on it. Thanks to the elctions, we had to wait for a long time, and the whole time I kept saying, not Cassie, not Cassie. It was her, and I saw her just yesterday, and she was wearinga cute shirt, and I didn't tell her I liked it. I just wish that I will learn from it, and never ever hold such a grudge against someone else that I can't even tell them I like their shirt. I am grieving, but I will be ok, I'm just going through the process right now. I know that I am not supposed to feel quilty, and et cetera, but I do, and I know it'll wear off enough to not feel so bad. This is healthy, because I am expressing my feelings and stuff, yet I also know in my heart that it'll take some time, and I'll be ok again. I hope that a lot of others will feel better about the many regrets and things you think of when these things happen, esp. at our school right now.
Yesterday, after school our bus almost got hit by a train. It was an accident, my bus driver parked too close and the things that stop you from crossing, they went down and landed on the bus, and we heard the train coming, but didn't see it yet, and she tried to back up but noone else backed up enough for her to back up enough, and miracously, the things went back up, off the bus, the train had stopped and we were freed. We were all either just sitting there, kind of frozen at first like I was, or saying things like I'm scared. The bus driver seemed upset, too, and said to stop. I guess that the conductor of the huge train saw this big yellow thing stuck on the tracks, and stopped because he realized itnwas a school bus. Not to mention the fortuant fact that the train was far enough away for us to escape.
Needl;ess to say, with all this tension and thinking forst we could have died, then finding out that some people did die, I went to sleep at 2 a.m., then had a nightmare about the Holacaust and the whole world being murdered and woke up from that at 4, then I fell back asleep till 6, and had a hard day at school. I'm going to get off now and go to bed, but if you want to do something, and you pray, please pray that the two girls' families and friends will heal and that they will soon feel slightly better, thinking about the good things they have shared with the girls. Good night, and SWEET DREAMS
Yesterday, well 11/5/02, two girls that go to our school were in a car accident and got killed instantly. There was a junior and a senior, and the senior is someone that was in a few of my classes, and I was holding a grudge against her for a while. It'ss too late now to apologize, but it helped me a little bit at school earlier, Wed. 11?6?02 when we were spending the day grievbing for them, and were allowed to write to them, and talk about them. I know peoplke of all different ages die everyday, but I can't believe, still, that I wrote to a classmate, and I wrote RIP. I don't know the junior, but I saw her picture, and she is a beautiful 16 year old female. It is going to be so hard for many of us in the next few weeks, yera, et cetera.
We are having our annual senior spirit week at school next week. I bet that Cassie, the senior was looking forward to participating just as much as the rest of us. And Jessica, the junior, She would have gotten to go to her first prom this year. They were not wearing seatbelts, and the rescue workers had no idea who was even driving, it was that bad. They actually lost control, ran into this guy, and crossed the median, and I heard that the car was flipping and stuff. The guy they hit went to the hospital and as released, before we even saw the news cast on it. Thanks to the elctions, we had to wait for a long time, and the whole time I kept saying, not Cassie, not Cassie. It was her, and I saw her just yesterday, and she was wearinga cute shirt, and I didn't tell her I liked it. I just wish that I will learn from it, and never ever hold such a grudge against someone else that I can't even tell them I like their shirt. I am grieving, but I will be ok, I'm just going through the process right now. I know that I am not supposed to feel quilty, and et cetera, but I do, and I know it'll wear off enough to not feel so bad. This is healthy, because I am expressing my feelings and stuff, yet I also know in my heart that it'll take some time, and I'll be ok again. I hope that a lot of others will feel better about the many regrets and things you think of when these things happen, esp. at our school right now.
Yesterday, after school our bus almost got hit by a train. It was an accident, my bus driver parked too close and the things that stop you from crossing, they went down and landed on the bus, and we heard the train coming, but didn't see it yet, and she tried to back up but noone else backed up enough for her to back up enough, and miracously, the things went back up, off the bus, the train had stopped and we were freed. We were all either just sitting there, kind of frozen at first like I was, or saying things like I'm scared. The bus driver seemed upset, too, and said to stop. I guess that the conductor of the huge train saw this big yellow thing stuck on the tracks, and stopped because he realized itnwas a school bus. Not to mention the fortuant fact that the train was far enough away for us to escape.
Needl;ess to say, with all this tension and thinking forst we could have died, then finding out that some people did die, I went to sleep at 2 a.m., then had a nightmare about the Holacaust and the whole world being murdered and woke up from that at 4, then I fell back asleep till 6, and had a hard day at school. I'm going to get off now and go to bed, but if you want to do something, and you pray, please pray that the two girls' families and friends will heal and that they will soon feel slightly better, thinking about the good things they have shared with the girls. Good night, and SWEET DREAMS