Todat at school Angie and Steve, my counselors came to see me at lunchtime for our indivisual meeting this week, and we went in this room thst's kind of off to the side of the nurses office and they seemed to only come to get on my back about things, even though I know they have to, since they want to help.
So after hearing about things like how I'm not trying, I am not always taking that trazodone to help me sleep, then there is how is your eating going?
I play dumb, not expecting that. Then I forget about my lying so they can't stop me, and I said after Angie said you know what he means, and Steve asked how many times I've purged in the last week, and I tell them, they tell me that I have never eaten in there when they came to see me, and they said that I had to start bringing a lunch in when they came or that they won't come.
Also before they left Steve said something to the nurse about it and she said, Mary, There's a 4 oz. of orange juice in the refrigerator, could you get it for me? I did that for her, and I also had to wait after Steve and Angie left, the bell already rung so I was supposed to be in class, and the nurse had me drink the orange juice then she signed a pass for me to go to class excused.
I was happy that well, I don't really know. I guess the excuse to pour a few calories in, from kind of being ordered to drink the orange juice, yet also I don't like how like, Steve and Angie, I mean, first they tell me I have to bring lunch in, and I think, Ok, if I have to, or "suffer the consequences", I can handle having some type of lunch once a week, but then they go behind that and has the nurse basically make sure that I'll bring lkunch in on the other days. I know, I know, they care, but when's it going to be my decision??? Of course, it's not as a big deal as I'm making it, either, because I can get around a lot of things, one is I could find another place to hide out in during my lunchtime, I don't have to either go in the nurses office, but I'm extremely uncomfortable in the cafeteria, but I could always not go in either the cafeteria or the nurses office, theres a really nice library there where I could sit and read, or stand and read the whole time.
Oh, well. I have better get my stuff ready for tomorrow, I'm going to school, work, and then to a basketball game where I'm going to help hold onto a rope at halftime and after the game, but I get to watch it, too, and I'll get in for free, since it's for rotc. Plus I will also earn community service points that go towards getting a ribbon, and I'll get a star to put on my ribbon for participation that I have already, and it should be an, intersting experience. And sometime in March for a wekk, 5 girls and 30 guys from rotc will have a chance to go to Virginia for a week during school to stay on some ship. I hope I'll get to go,.... Well, gotta get off here now.
So after hearing about things like how I'm not trying, I am not always taking that trazodone to help me sleep, then there is how is your eating going?
I play dumb, not expecting that. Then I forget about my lying so they can't stop me, and I said after Angie said you know what he means, and Steve asked how many times I've purged in the last week, and I tell them, they tell me that I have never eaten in there when they came to see me, and they said that I had to start bringing a lunch in when they came or that they won't come.
Also before they left Steve said something to the nurse about it and she said, Mary, There's a 4 oz. of orange juice in the refrigerator, could you get it for me? I did that for her, and I also had to wait after Steve and Angie left, the bell already rung so I was supposed to be in class, and the nurse had me drink the orange juice then she signed a pass for me to go to class excused.
I was happy that well, I don't really know. I guess the excuse to pour a few calories in, from kind of being ordered to drink the orange juice, yet also I don't like how like, Steve and Angie, I mean, first they tell me I have to bring lunch in, and I think, Ok, if I have to, or "suffer the consequences", I can handle having some type of lunch once a week, but then they go behind that and has the nurse basically make sure that I'll bring lkunch in on the other days. I know, I know, they care, but when's it going to be my decision??? Of course, it's not as a big deal as I'm making it, either, because I can get around a lot of things, one is I could find another place to hide out in during my lunchtime, I don't have to either go in the nurses office, but I'm extremely uncomfortable in the cafeteria, but I could always not go in either the cafeteria or the nurses office, theres a really nice library there where I could sit and read, or stand and read the whole time.
Oh, well. I have better get my stuff ready for tomorrow, I'm going to school, work, and then to a basketball game where I'm going to help hold onto a rope at halftime and after the game, but I get to watch it, too, and I'll get in for free, since it's for rotc. Plus I will also earn community service points that go towards getting a ribbon, and I'll get a star to put on my ribbon for participation that I have already, and it should be an, intersting experience. And sometime in March for a wekk, 5 girls and 30 guys from rotc will have a chance to go to Virginia for a week during school to stay on some ship. I hope I'll get to go,.... Well, gotta get off here now.