Hi, everyone,
I got suspended from school! Here's what happened, and it may not make any sense because I'm confused, too.
Friday, in my english class, towards the end of the bell, I went to my teacher to get like my fourth quiz to make up for her class. I just studied the weeks' worth of vocab words and the parts of speech, and saw that this boy sat in my seat. I told him he could sit there until I had my quix and then I would be sitting there. When I went back to my desk with my quiz, I said will you please get up? He ignored me. I think I asked again, and not so nicely, and then I took his books of my desk and put them on a counter so he'd get the picture. He still sat there. By that time my teacher came over, he threw my stuff off of my desk and the teacher accused os both of acting like two year olds. Then she asked me to go get his stuff for him. I did, because I figured she was actually thinking I would be the most mature one out of us two year olds. Of course, she didn't dare tell him to give me my stuff, but he picked it up, and played a game of keep away with me. Now, he's a lot bigger then me, wider and taller, but I went after my stuff anyway, because I'm used to being taunted by small minded people, like say, my mother. I figured I'd get my stuff from the bastard. So I tried for a minute, then he lowered the papers and notebook a little, I snatched it, then I was so pissed and riled up by then that as soon as another little smart ass said something, I threw the stuff at him, I remember trying to jabb my pen in him, and then I said something that I don't remember, slammed the door really loud, and left. I stood hidden in a bathroom stall for a few minutes shaking and crying until I calmed down. If I grabbed my purse on the way out I would have smoked a ciggarette.
So then I walk back into my classroom, ignored my teacher who was jut staring at me, and started putting my stuff together. I was calmer then, but still pissed, even at her. She kept trying to ask me stuff, like where did I go? I shrugged. Why did you leave. I just plain ignored her, She said you are going to the principles office, right? I shrugged. After I finally had my stuff ready I left, I knew better then to go to my next classroom, so I just headed to the office, which is a place I usually only go to to have a bus pass approved.
I saw the nurse, she was somewhere behind me and we're pretty close, and I finally realized it was her calling my name I started heading back to her to say hi and to give her a hug, but then I saw my teacher heading behind her, so I just turned around and went back towards the office. I heard the bitch, I mean my teacher, tell the nurse in this prissy little voice "oh, we're having some trouble right now" and I just rolled my eyes and didn't hear whatever else she had to say.
So, there was the boy, lying from what I heard later, saying it was an empty desk and he didn't know it was mine and this and that, and then there was this teacher and she was saying, oh, we don't have assigned seats so how could he know it was her desk, and all of this other BS. I thought, well, since she took at least two of my quizzes from me at that desk, she knew it was mine, esp. since I've sat there all year by my friend, and they both, the teacher and priciple mostly wanted to know why, and what I had going on in my personal life that could possibly have made me act that way, esp. since I don't act that way normally, and stuff like that. I could have gfiven them a lot of things, or excuses, but decided not to bother. I didn't feel like giving them the satisfaction of thinking there! That's it. Plus, I knew that none of us had an answer and that they couldn't help me if they wanted to, and mostly I didn't want to give them the satisfaction.
So, I comitted several crimes in 5 minutes. Slamming the door was a safety issue, esp. if the teacher had followed me and I slammed it on her hand or something, throwing the stuff at the bastard was physical attack, I might as well have hit him, the whole thing was a disruption, and leaving was truancy. So, I got suspended out of school for two days, this Monday and Tuesday but wouldn't have been coming anyways, because I have to get my wisdom teeth cutt out Monday morning. All four of them, so I was already planning on missing like three days of school. All of this my Mother doesn't know about, and I am glad, but not for reasons most kids would be.
Noone truley understands how nasty and mean and selfish and lazy she is, except for mostly intermediate family. She doesn't need to know because she would only use it against me in an argument, esp. one in a meeting with the counselors because she tries to look good. I don't even care.
Here are some reasons maybe why I acted that way. I was pissed, esp. when I knew the idiot was just ignoring me. I'm tired of big people, at school and at home, treating me like an invalid. I don't let people get their way with stuff, esp. after I played nicely. I have been tired, like I always am, because from Tuesday to Thusrday night I have been waking up at 6, going to school all day, going to work straight from school, then getting home really late, like around 11 and then only having time to shower, get stuff for the next day ready, and try to get to sleep. Mom and I never get along, and she went gambling again and there has been no groceries. I'm severley missing Elizabeth, my forme therapist, and now I am getting a new case manager, too, because Erica is leaving now. My dad keeps saying I can live with him vbut isn't cating on it. At work, where he usually comes to on his break from work, and before and after work, he treats me like a failure and I am only a little relaxed when he is not around. One of my friends at school completely ignores me, and for no appearant reason. Racism is getting bad at school, this black girl in the bathroom weho said something to me once, well, around but directed at me, hurt my hispanic friend verbally. My ex best friend is finally back at school, and that's a long story by itself. I haven't had any time to see other friends, or even call them, because when I'm not at school or working this past week, I'm babysitting. I still need to go shopping and see my friends from Iraq. I'm passing this quarter with d's, if I'm lucky. I never got to finish, well, start that last quiz and that is one major assigment that I need to make up for just 1 class. I'm going to be a smart ass and tpe a sign with my name on it to my desk in english and tell the idiots, including my teacher that maybe it'll help them realize who sits there. Can you tell I'm still pissed? I hate my high school.
I got suspended from school! Here's what happened, and it may not make any sense because I'm confused, too.
Friday, in my english class, towards the end of the bell, I went to my teacher to get like my fourth quiz to make up for her class. I just studied the weeks' worth of vocab words and the parts of speech, and saw that this boy sat in my seat. I told him he could sit there until I had my quix and then I would be sitting there. When I went back to my desk with my quiz, I said will you please get up? He ignored me. I think I asked again, and not so nicely, and then I took his books of my desk and put them on a counter so he'd get the picture. He still sat there. By that time my teacher came over, he threw my stuff off of my desk and the teacher accused os both of acting like two year olds. Then she asked me to go get his stuff for him. I did, because I figured she was actually thinking I would be the most mature one out of us two year olds. Of course, she didn't dare tell him to give me my stuff, but he picked it up, and played a game of keep away with me. Now, he's a lot bigger then me, wider and taller, but I went after my stuff anyway, because I'm used to being taunted by small minded people, like say, my mother. I figured I'd get my stuff from the bastard. So I tried for a minute, then he lowered the papers and notebook a little, I snatched it, then I was so pissed and riled up by then that as soon as another little smart ass said something, I threw the stuff at him, I remember trying to jabb my pen in him, and then I said something that I don't remember, slammed the door really loud, and left. I stood hidden in a bathroom stall for a few minutes shaking and crying until I calmed down. If I grabbed my purse on the way out I would have smoked a ciggarette.
So then I walk back into my classroom, ignored my teacher who was jut staring at me, and started putting my stuff together. I was calmer then, but still pissed, even at her. She kept trying to ask me stuff, like where did I go? I shrugged. Why did you leave. I just plain ignored her, She said you are going to the principles office, right? I shrugged. After I finally had my stuff ready I left, I knew better then to go to my next classroom, so I just headed to the office, which is a place I usually only go to to have a bus pass approved.
I saw the nurse, she was somewhere behind me and we're pretty close, and I finally realized it was her calling my name I started heading back to her to say hi and to give her a hug, but then I saw my teacher heading behind her, so I just turned around and went back towards the office. I heard the bitch, I mean my teacher, tell the nurse in this prissy little voice "oh, we're having some trouble right now" and I just rolled my eyes and didn't hear whatever else she had to say.
So, there was the boy, lying from what I heard later, saying it was an empty desk and he didn't know it was mine and this and that, and then there was this teacher and she was saying, oh, we don't have assigned seats so how could he know it was her desk, and all of this other BS. I thought, well, since she took at least two of my quizzes from me at that desk, she knew it was mine, esp. since I've sat there all year by my friend, and they both, the teacher and priciple mostly wanted to know why, and what I had going on in my personal life that could possibly have made me act that way, esp. since I don't act that way normally, and stuff like that. I could have gfiven them a lot of things, or excuses, but decided not to bother. I didn't feel like giving them the satisfaction of thinking there! That's it. Plus, I knew that none of us had an answer and that they couldn't help me if they wanted to, and mostly I didn't want to give them the satisfaction.
So, I comitted several crimes in 5 minutes. Slamming the door was a safety issue, esp. if the teacher had followed me and I slammed it on her hand or something, throwing the stuff at the bastard was physical attack, I might as well have hit him, the whole thing was a disruption, and leaving was truancy. So, I got suspended out of school for two days, this Monday and Tuesday but wouldn't have been coming anyways, because I have to get my wisdom teeth cutt out Monday morning. All four of them, so I was already planning on missing like three days of school. All of this my Mother doesn't know about, and I am glad, but not for reasons most kids would be.
Noone truley understands how nasty and mean and selfish and lazy she is, except for mostly intermediate family. She doesn't need to know because she would only use it against me in an argument, esp. one in a meeting with the counselors because she tries to look good. I don't even care.
Here are some reasons maybe why I acted that way. I was pissed, esp. when I knew the idiot was just ignoring me. I'm tired of big people, at school and at home, treating me like an invalid. I don't let people get their way with stuff, esp. after I played nicely. I have been tired, like I always am, because from Tuesday to Thusrday night I have been waking up at 6, going to school all day, going to work straight from school, then getting home really late, like around 11 and then only having time to shower, get stuff for the next day ready, and try to get to sleep. Mom and I never get along, and she went gambling again and there has been no groceries. I'm severley missing Elizabeth, my forme therapist, and now I am getting a new case manager, too, because Erica is leaving now. My dad keeps saying I can live with him vbut isn't cating on it. At work, where he usually comes to on his break from work, and before and after work, he treats me like a failure and I am only a little relaxed when he is not around. One of my friends at school completely ignores me, and for no appearant reason. Racism is getting bad at school, this black girl in the bathroom weho said something to me once, well, around but directed at me, hurt my hispanic friend verbally. My ex best friend is finally back at school, and that's a long story by itself. I haven't had any time to see other friends, or even call them, because when I'm not at school or working this past week, I'm babysitting. I still need to go shopping and see my friends from Iraq. I'm passing this quarter with d's, if I'm lucky. I never got to finish, well, start that last quiz and that is one major assigment that I need to make up for just 1 class. I'm going to be a smart ass and tpe a sign with my name on it to my desk in english and tell the idiots, including my teacher that maybe it'll help them realize who sits there. Can you tell I'm still pissed? I hate my high school.