Well,.... After David had left with his mom monday around 5ish, I went to work and met a guy name Bill there, and he took me with him to his explorers post, he stayed although he's already a firefighter, not just in training and first we went to a car place for this guy to check his fan belt and I just stood around drinking water while I waited, I must have had like a gallon or so, not really but then we went and we met at the fourth station there and since we were early I walked around looking at everything, and I went over to where an ambulance was, and I walked up into the back and started talking to two lady medics, and one said are you riding with us tonight? I said I wish, but no, I am not old enough to ride along plus I'm just visiting this station for the first time. She was very nice, she was checking over the equipment while I looked around and asked questions and wished I could ride with them.
They had 3 calls while I was in the training room after the meeting started, for an infant with allergic reaction to pennicillin, and 8 year old with seizures, and I forgot the third one.
We were taught patient assessment that night, or at least a little bit of it, and I took a lot of notes, things like, I wrote the word sample vertically on my paper, and by each letter I wrote something, like Signs/Symptoms, Allergies, Medications, Past history, like recent surgeries and stuff, Last oral intake, in case they need surgery, so they know when they ate drank last so they know when to operate, on an empty stomach, Events, things that could've led to the illness, or injury.
I loved it there, and later on asked the lady about this part of my stomach, which someone said were my ovaries, and there was this pain there I noticed after using the restroom, anyway, she whispered to me later and told me that I was ovulating, that was the first time I ever felt it, and for some weird reason I was kind of excited, I sure am strange, huh?.
Bill took me out to eat later at a burger king close by where I ran into someone I used to work with, I was so comfortable with him, I ate. didn't throw up till later. Afterwards, after I bummed two ciggs from the lady I used to work with, he lay in the back of his truck, just relaxing in the parking lot, I sat near but away from him since I was smoking, well, I felt like curling up by him and looking up at the stars, it was that peacful. I've had a great day.
Tuesday, I went to school, found out that I'd be screened for swimming in my first class thursday, panicked about the wearing swimsuit, even with a shirt over it, and at lunchtime took the laxes and later after school, keot napping, had the fever and shivers, cramps, et cetera. Mom thought it was a stomach virus.
Today, Wednesday, I slept in, then later told mom I was still not feeling well, because during the night I woke up a lot to go to the restroom and actually kept like falling asleep in there, and then after waking up late I got ready for school but then decided that I couldn't go, and so I went back to sleep until mom asked if I wasn't feeling betetr and told me I couldn't go to my explorers, which I ended up waking up around the time I'd be out of school, and made it for about three hours without a run to the bathroom and so I was feeling better and after cleaning stuff up I got to go to explorers. We learned intubation, which is to me like cpr but it works better as long as you know what you're doing, I've heard of it tbut this was the first time trying it on an adult maniquin, first I got the stomach, and then a paramedic told us that if we ever did put the tube in the stomach instead of the lungs, to keep it in, use a new tube and try again, since then you wouldn';t be able to put it in the stomach so you would get it in the rightr place, because the stommache would be blocked allready and it wouldn't hurt the patient. I tried it again, later after someonne showed me where the vocal cords were, and I did it! He lived!!! I didn't almost kill him that time!!!!!
I was so scared yesterday. Today I called Mrs. B the lady that is now a mentor, and she had taken me shopping before and stuff, I called her at home and after the hi, how are you's, she said why weren't you in school today? I really wanted to talk about it but not to family or the therapist who came yesterday, so I was like, well I kind of made myself really sick this time, and she said how, and I said guess, nervous, she said you took a bunch of pills? I said kind of, and she said you took more laxatives? I said yes, then got out of earshot of mom and went downstairs, and she said why?? then her boyfriend, Joe said something and she said Mary, Joe asked if he should come over and give you a spanking. I said no, that's ok. She asked if I'd be in school tomorrow, and then said we'd talk about it, and told me where she'd be, and I'm pretty sure she won't tell Steve or Angie or anyone, esp. since the dangers passed. I can tell her anything without worrying about it, as long as it's not going to kill me or anything like that, like these could've done something worse, but it was allready done and over with. The only time she did tell, was once with laxes before she told the nurse that I wasn't going to be feeling well, and why, and later the nurse called mom and told her, and I went to the doctors after school and stuff, went home and mom later at dinner said that I'd better eat, or I'd be going to the hospital. I laughed at her bluff and sipped on my diet coke without ordering food. Went home afterwards.
Oh, after explorers I had to sit at moms work with her for a while, and this regular there said I was a shit, trying to make me laugh, thinking it was funny or something, I mean, he just came out with that. Then I started talking, and about explorers, he said he ran a squad till he got a felony from shooting a policeman, and said he served 10 and a half years in prison, he then after I mentioned my bruised knee that still hurts a little but is healing, he slapped it, I punched him, he hit me on my forehead really really hard, I got up to sit at the counter instead of by him, he reached out and slepped my butt!!!!! And then mom was like, after seeing that, children, now behave. Mary, I am at work, go sit down! Then she asked him to drive us home. That's what happened, I may have disturbed some customers after getting up after getting hit by this stranger to me, and touched inappropiatly, but mom yelled at me and sent me home, because I was being bad. She just doesn't give a shit. I don't see why I call her mom, she just doesn't care. I just turned around and said, oh, thanks for letting a guy who spanked me take me home, I appreciate it. She said I didn't knwo. Uh, huh. I told her that the next time he asks for me to go to his store in the same plaza as moms work to watvch dvds with him since it's usually quiet and noone is there, I told her to tell him no, I will not. I said I will not go into an empty place with a perverted dangerous amn, I'm not stupid. I won't set myself up that way, I'd rather abuse my own body then let all of these so called men do it. :( Gotta go, get my swimming suit, excuse note from school today, towell shampoo and conditioner and Rotc uniform and hanger for while in pool ready. I'm guarenting no sleep till closer to 4, but who cares. I slpt a lot today, anyhow. I'm upset now
They had 3 calls while I was in the training room after the meeting started, for an infant with allergic reaction to pennicillin, and 8 year old with seizures, and I forgot the third one.
We were taught patient assessment that night, or at least a little bit of it, and I took a lot of notes, things like, I wrote the word sample vertically on my paper, and by each letter I wrote something, like Signs/Symptoms, Allergies, Medications, Past history, like recent surgeries and stuff, Last oral intake, in case they need surgery, so they know when they ate drank last so they know when to operate, on an empty stomach, Events, things that could've led to the illness, or injury.
I loved it there, and later on asked the lady about this part of my stomach, which someone said were my ovaries, and there was this pain there I noticed after using the restroom, anyway, she whispered to me later and told me that I was ovulating, that was the first time I ever felt it, and for some weird reason I was kind of excited, I sure am strange, huh?.
Bill took me out to eat later at a burger king close by where I ran into someone I used to work with, I was so comfortable with him, I ate. didn't throw up till later. Afterwards, after I bummed two ciggs from the lady I used to work with, he lay in the back of his truck, just relaxing in the parking lot, I sat near but away from him since I was smoking, well, I felt like curling up by him and looking up at the stars, it was that peacful. I've had a great day.
Tuesday, I went to school, found out that I'd be screened for swimming in my first class thursday, panicked about the wearing swimsuit, even with a shirt over it, and at lunchtime took the laxes and later after school, keot napping, had the fever and shivers, cramps, et cetera. Mom thought it was a stomach virus.
Today, Wednesday, I slept in, then later told mom I was still not feeling well, because during the night I woke up a lot to go to the restroom and actually kept like falling asleep in there, and then after waking up late I got ready for school but then decided that I couldn't go, and so I went back to sleep until mom asked if I wasn't feeling betetr and told me I couldn't go to my explorers, which I ended up waking up around the time I'd be out of school, and made it for about three hours without a run to the bathroom and so I was feeling better and after cleaning stuff up I got to go to explorers. We learned intubation, which is to me like cpr but it works better as long as you know what you're doing, I've heard of it tbut this was the first time trying it on an adult maniquin, first I got the stomach, and then a paramedic told us that if we ever did put the tube in the stomach instead of the lungs, to keep it in, use a new tube and try again, since then you wouldn';t be able to put it in the stomach so you would get it in the rightr place, because the stommache would be blocked allready and it wouldn't hurt the patient. I tried it again, later after someonne showed me where the vocal cords were, and I did it! He lived!!! I didn't almost kill him that time!!!!!
I was so scared yesterday. Today I called Mrs. B the lady that is now a mentor, and she had taken me shopping before and stuff, I called her at home and after the hi, how are you's, she said why weren't you in school today? I really wanted to talk about it but not to family or the therapist who came yesterday, so I was like, well I kind of made myself really sick this time, and she said how, and I said guess, nervous, she said you took a bunch of pills? I said kind of, and she said you took more laxatives? I said yes, then got out of earshot of mom and went downstairs, and she said why?? then her boyfriend, Joe said something and she said Mary, Joe asked if he should come over and give you a spanking. I said no, that's ok. She asked if I'd be in school tomorrow, and then said we'd talk about it, and told me where she'd be, and I'm pretty sure she won't tell Steve or Angie or anyone, esp. since the dangers passed. I can tell her anything without worrying about it, as long as it's not going to kill me or anything like that, like these could've done something worse, but it was allready done and over with. The only time she did tell, was once with laxes before she told the nurse that I wasn't going to be feeling well, and why, and later the nurse called mom and told her, and I went to the doctors after school and stuff, went home and mom later at dinner said that I'd better eat, or I'd be going to the hospital. I laughed at her bluff and sipped on my diet coke without ordering food. Went home afterwards.
Oh, after explorers I had to sit at moms work with her for a while, and this regular there said I was a shit, trying to make me laugh, thinking it was funny or something, I mean, he just came out with that. Then I started talking, and about explorers, he said he ran a squad till he got a felony from shooting a policeman, and said he served 10 and a half years in prison, he then after I mentioned my bruised knee that still hurts a little but is healing, he slapped it, I punched him, he hit me on my forehead really really hard, I got up to sit at the counter instead of by him, he reached out and slepped my butt!!!!! And then mom was like, after seeing that, children, now behave. Mary, I am at work, go sit down! Then she asked him to drive us home. That's what happened, I may have disturbed some customers after getting up after getting hit by this stranger to me, and touched inappropiatly, but mom yelled at me and sent me home, because I was being bad. She just doesn't give a shit. I don't see why I call her mom, she just doesn't care. I just turned around and said, oh, thanks for letting a guy who spanked me take me home, I appreciate it. She said I didn't knwo. Uh, huh. I told her that the next time he asks for me to go to his store in the same plaza as moms work to watvch dvds with him since it's usually quiet and noone is there, I told her to tell him no, I will not. I said I will not go into an empty place with a perverted dangerous amn, I'm not stupid. I won't set myself up that way, I'd rather abuse my own body then let all of these so called men do it. :( Gotta go, get my swimming suit, excuse note from school today, towell shampoo and conditioner and Rotc uniform and hanger for while in pool ready. I'm guarenting no sleep till closer to 4, but who cares. I slpt a lot today, anyhow. I'm upset now