IT'S SUPER SATURDAY!!! I had taken a cpr/first aid class I am CERTIFIED People are just leaving from Teri's bday party here at home
I'm ready to just cancel the reservations and everything for my birthday I am too depressed to want to celebrate.
Dad hired five private invesigators. Found out last Thursday, the last friday or whatever I talked to twoo and mentioned moms problem with gambling and at court last friday mom found out those two men we talked to that night were part of the five since jauary, they taped our conversation.
I'm seriously starting to think of a positive way out, instead of killing myself. Maybe I can go to foster care or something, I know I'm sick of myself, everyone else is, too. I feel as lost as kids I hear about in foster care, I mean, parents neglect, have abused in different ways and I'm a "lost teen in trouble" i don't do drugs or drink (that much) but instead when I get mad or hurt or anything, I slah, I swallow, and I just plain hate myself, swallow like pills, I throw up, I cut and I overdose, et cetera.
I havee to go and write on paper, I'm thinking too much.
I'm ready to just cancel the reservations and everything for my birthday I am too depressed to want to celebrate.
Dad hired five private invesigators. Found out last Thursday, the last friday or whatever I talked to twoo and mentioned moms problem with gambling and at court last friday mom found out those two men we talked to that night were part of the five since jauary, they taped our conversation.
I'm seriously starting to think of a positive way out, instead of killing myself. Maybe I can go to foster care or something, I know I'm sick of myself, everyone else is, too. I feel as lost as kids I hear about in foster care, I mean, parents neglect, have abused in different ways and I'm a "lost teen in trouble" i don't do drugs or drink (that much) but instead when I get mad or hurt or anything, I slah, I swallow, and I just plain hate myself, swallow like pills, I throw up, I cut and I overdose, et cetera.
I havee to go and write on paper, I'm thinking too much.