Wow. Since I last wrote on here,... a lot has happened. Physically and emotionally.
I can't even remember if I wrote how the night before last, but anyhoo, in case I didn't, at like maybe 11, mom babysat at home over the summer. One boy was older then us, he was 14, Brian. He stayed the longest and mom andf his mother became friends, and so he's almost like a brother to us, or me at least.
So Thursday night, the night before last, this now 19 year old Brian needs a place to stay and get's to come here and stay until he could find a place, and what do you know?
See, we're like bro/sis, he is so cool and really funny and mature, too. He has a daughter name Catlin, who her mom as custody of her, and anyway, it was so nice.
The first night, after Cilla, her dad, my mom and Teri went upstairs to sleep, we stayed up, between the two of us nightowls, (I like saying it that way) we stayed up sometime past 4 a.m., and I had school friday. he layed down on the sofa bed I put up for him in here, I layed next to him in the floor, turned over and thought of him. I was ssssooo attracted to him, esp. hen he took his shirt off, and I turned around and fanatized about him. But, I didn't know how he felt so I didn't say a word, and besides, he thinks of us as sisters, too, and mom already told him that if he ever tried to have sex with either of us, she'd kill him.
She missed her chance last night. He left the dance and got drunk, I got bored at the dance and Daviod's mom picked us up. They dropped me off. Brian came by later, and when everyone went to sleep we were talking, I modeled off my ugly fat self with cute clothes or they'd look cute if I was a little thinner, well, not so fat.But he loved it. And we decided to play truth or dare,... downstiars in my roo wheer it was private, in the basement on my bed. The game didn't last too long. We wanted to play something else.
I feel for him now in a different way, while scrubbing crap at workI thought of him and some stuff, and when Isaw him walking by I yelled hi, brian! He came back after getting cigarettes.
He's out with these two girls we both know right now, playing pool. And yes, I am jealous, only because he's going out with them and I'm home, babysitting, and no, we don't (yet) have a boyfrined/girlfriend relationship, so I have absolutely no idea what's going on, but I know that just because he's staying here with us doesn't mean I have to feel so attached to him, but I am still thinking about when he'll get back after pool and when the lady is goingb to pick the baby up, and everyone's going to sleep. But the way he acted earlier I don't know if he thinks it was the right idea. We had a situation to poss. take advantage of, and we did. 16 year old female, 19m year old male, living under the same roof, after hours both still awake and everyone else isn't.
Today at work I dropped fries for the first time, because this was my first time working since I was 16, and I'm allowed to now, and well, some of the grease splattered on me, I cursed and dropped the tongs, and then after telling my mannager that to get new ones and she got rreally pissed and so I didn't bother her about my finger, it really started hurting later though after having my hand just under the heat lamps, that keep the fries hot while in that thing, and so I wa sstanding there shaking it, and my manger came and she was like, what happened, did you burn your hand or something? I said yes. she was stuill aggravated but let me go and put burn cream on it. NZow, hours later, I have secon degree burns on that finger and between it and my thumb and it still is a little painful. I know first aid, why didn't i take care of it sooner?? I have two white blisters and I can't describe the other thing. My right ear's cannal is inflammated, or whatever, and my finger is burnt, my head hit a table on the right side, and oh well. Too bad I'm not left-handed. I'm tired now, hasta luego! Mary
I can't even remember if I wrote how the night before last, but anyhoo, in case I didn't, at like maybe 11, mom babysat at home over the summer. One boy was older then us, he was 14, Brian. He stayed the longest and mom andf his mother became friends, and so he's almost like a brother to us, or me at least.
So Thursday night, the night before last, this now 19 year old Brian needs a place to stay and get's to come here and stay until he could find a place, and what do you know?
See, we're like bro/sis, he is so cool and really funny and mature, too. He has a daughter name Catlin, who her mom as custody of her, and anyway, it was so nice.
The first night, after Cilla, her dad, my mom and Teri went upstairs to sleep, we stayed up, between the two of us nightowls, (I like saying it that way) we stayed up sometime past 4 a.m., and I had school friday. he layed down on the sofa bed I put up for him in here, I layed next to him in the floor, turned over and thought of him. I was ssssooo attracted to him, esp. hen he took his shirt off, and I turned around and fanatized about him. But, I didn't know how he felt so I didn't say a word, and besides, he thinks of us as sisters, too, and mom already told him that if he ever tried to have sex with either of us, she'd kill him.
She missed her chance last night. He left the dance and got drunk, I got bored at the dance and Daviod's mom picked us up. They dropped me off. Brian came by later, and when everyone went to sleep we were talking, I modeled off my ugly fat self with cute clothes or they'd look cute if I was a little thinner, well, not so fat.But he loved it. And we decided to play truth or dare,... downstiars in my roo wheer it was private, in the basement on my bed. The game didn't last too long. We wanted to play something else.
I feel for him now in a different way, while scrubbing crap at workI thought of him and some stuff, and when Isaw him walking by I yelled hi, brian! He came back after getting cigarettes.
He's out with these two girls we both know right now, playing pool. And yes, I am jealous, only because he's going out with them and I'm home, babysitting, and no, we don't (yet) have a boyfrined/girlfriend relationship, so I have absolutely no idea what's going on, but I know that just because he's staying here with us doesn't mean I have to feel so attached to him, but I am still thinking about when he'll get back after pool and when the lady is goingb to pick the baby up, and everyone's going to sleep. But the way he acted earlier I don't know if he thinks it was the right idea. We had a situation to poss. take advantage of, and we did. 16 year old female, 19m year old male, living under the same roof, after hours both still awake and everyone else isn't.
Today at work I dropped fries for the first time, because this was my first time working since I was 16, and I'm allowed to now, and well, some of the grease splattered on me, I cursed and dropped the tongs, and then after telling my mannager that to get new ones and she got rreally pissed and so I didn't bother her about my finger, it really started hurting later though after having my hand just under the heat lamps, that keep the fries hot while in that thing, and so I wa sstanding there shaking it, and my manger came and she was like, what happened, did you burn your hand or something? I said yes. she was stuill aggravated but let me go and put burn cream on it. NZow, hours later, I have secon degree burns on that finger and between it and my thumb and it still is a little painful. I know first aid, why didn't i take care of it sooner?? I have two white blisters and I can't describe the other thing. My right ear's cannal is inflammated, or whatever, and my finger is burnt, my head hit a table on the right side, and oh well. Too bad I'm not left-handed. I'm tired now, hasta luego! Mary