I know some things, and my counselors know some things. For some odd reason, a lot of the things we each know don't mix, like, when they say that my mother loves me, and I say she loves herself, we compromise by saying that she maybe just doesn't know how to shopw me she loves me.
There are other things, too. I can't think of any, but they are all like that,..
I may not get to write anymore for a while, it's a long story, but I came home from work and was goping to come in here until dad came, Teri said she wantecd to leave right then, have dad come then, anyway,. and I finaly was turning the computer on saying that she could out to eat with dad and then he could pick me up.
Well, it didn't quite happen that way,. mom came over, said that I was selfish and not going to get on HER computer and she unplugged it, I was mad, I mean, she provoked this, and so I blurted out, while on the phone with dad to see if he copuld take teri out and stuff, I said bbecause mom is acting like a bitch. Shje said she was boxing it up tonight, I said whatever, put my shoes on and left. I was standing on the road, watching dad pull out and trying to get him to see me, but I didn't get close enough in time when I ran there.
So I went home, grabvbed a book, slammed the door and left again, too much energy to stay around someone who was provoking stuiff for no reason, I ended up walking to dads, about a mile away,a dn then back again because they were out or somegthing. I'm back here again,. now, dad droive me.
I went back hoime only so I couldn't satisfy moms cravings or give her any excuses to do anything to me, and was going to play jenga with Cilla whiel trying to call Ms. B.
She answred, and I was so surprised! I asked her how she was, she asked what I've been up to, I said I've been tired, working a lot and stuff. After she told me she was doing a lot better she said, so, when did you get out of the hospital? I was thinking, oh, shit! I'm not sure if I even said that or not. So I ansswred, really not wanting to. I said monday, she said how long were you there for? I said thursday to monday,a nd stuff like that. She said why,. Is aid I don't know I was just being stupid. She didn't let me go with that, so I told her as much of the story fromt hat night as I copuld, I think she knows some things I haven't told her. She knewthat Brian was living with us, and picked me up from school with moms car before a few times, once we followed her for part of the way, which was fun, and I also think she figures I have slept with him, yet I haven't opened that information up with her.
Before we hung up, since she was eating supper, I said, Ms. B, I really didn't want to tell you about it, because I didn't want to worry you or anything,.. oit sounded dumb, since she'd probably figure it out anyway, in fact, the school nurse called her, figuring I talked to her already, because she learned abbout it when I was in the hospital firt, the er, and my older sister that told her when picking teri up haven't gotten back to her yet.
Well, I'm upset, I toom something with me to cut myself again, but I think I'll just throw it away, take care and write if you want to, I'll check this and my email when I get chances to. I have schjool tomorrow, too. :(
There are other things, too. I can't think of any, but they are all like that,..
I may not get to write anymore for a while, it's a long story, but I came home from work and was goping to come in here until dad came, Teri said she wantecd to leave right then, have dad come then, anyway,. and I finaly was turning the computer on saying that she could out to eat with dad and then he could pick me up.
Well, it didn't quite happen that way,. mom came over, said that I was selfish and not going to get on HER computer and she unplugged it, I was mad, I mean, she provoked this, and so I blurted out, while on the phone with dad to see if he copuld take teri out and stuff, I said bbecause mom is acting like a bitch. Shje said she was boxing it up tonight, I said whatever, put my shoes on and left. I was standing on the road, watching dad pull out and trying to get him to see me, but I didn't get close enough in time when I ran there.
So I went home, grabvbed a book, slammed the door and left again, too much energy to stay around someone who was provoking stuiff for no reason, I ended up walking to dads, about a mile away,a dn then back again because they were out or somegthing. I'm back here again,. now, dad droive me.
I went back hoime only so I couldn't satisfy moms cravings or give her any excuses to do anything to me, and was going to play jenga with Cilla whiel trying to call Ms. B.
She answred, and I was so surprised! I asked her how she was, she asked what I've been up to, I said I've been tired, working a lot and stuff. After she told me she was doing a lot better she said, so, when did you get out of the hospital? I was thinking, oh, shit! I'm not sure if I even said that or not. So I ansswred, really not wanting to. I said monday, she said how long were you there for? I said thursday to monday,a nd stuff like that. She said why,. Is aid I don't know I was just being stupid. She didn't let me go with that, so I told her as much of the story fromt hat night as I copuld, I think she knows some things I haven't told her. She knewthat Brian was living with us, and picked me up from school with moms car before a few times, once we followed her for part of the way, which was fun, and I also think she figures I have slept with him, yet I haven't opened that information up with her.
Before we hung up, since she was eating supper, I said, Ms. B, I really didn't want to tell you about it, because I didn't want to worry you or anything,.. oit sounded dumb, since she'd probably figure it out anyway, in fact, the school nurse called her, figuring I talked to her already, because she learned abbout it when I was in the hospital firt, the er, and my older sister that told her when picking teri up haven't gotten back to her yet.
Well, I'm upset, I toom something with me to cut myself again, but I think I'll just throw it away, take care and write if you want to, I'll check this and my email when I get chances to. I have schjool tomorrow, too. :(