Has someone been praying for me? Or a lot of someones??? Because some very nice, but unexpected things happened today. Let's just say that in my "poaper journal" I started the entry today off as wow! I had a n awesome day!
I had a comfiortable sleep, I couldn't take my pill because when my mom suggested it I was lying down, ready to crash, being sick makes you extremely tired. I woke up somewhat refreshed, but still slept on the way to school, I used my purse as a pillow. I'm glad I took the glass to cut with out!!!
As soon as I was heading into my first bell, aquatics, I decided to (I hate saying this part, it's embarrassing!!!) buy a donut and eat it. I sat down in the hallway, and I opened my bag, no purse. I panicked. I missed most of my first bell, I was in the security office. I finally realized that this girl by my locker, megan might have picked it up with her stuff, together we had a lot of stuff on the floor in the morning, so I could've mixed it up a little. She had it and returned it, I was so happy. And relieved. I trust her, and I like her a lot, she's nice and smart and unlike many rude people at school she's pretty friendly, and she talks to me, like a good aquantence, if anything.
After school I ran all of the way to my locker, which is so very far from my last class, and I got there, Megan told a girl to move out of the way, that she was in front of my locker and I had to be fast, I always almost miss the bus, but am pretty good at making it asometimes, too. Loren, the girl, she just stepped aside, smiled and said if I missed the bus she would take me home. Thanks, but I';ll make it I said. She grabed someof my two million bags and raced with me outside, handed it over, and went back insode, she missed seeing that right then the buses started driving off.
I stood in our attendance office and talked to Ms. B and she said well, how are you going to get home? I said I don't know. I saw Megan and Loren and everyone, standinga round but there was no way I'd go and ask if I could still take her up on her offer! So she sees me, walks over, and later said that she just told Megan I made it and, Megan said, oh, really? Why is she right behind you then? She walks over, and says, again, do you need a ride? and Ms. B said yes, answered for me, becasue she knows how I am around kids my age, I feel pretty shy with most, sometimes intimidated, because I don't have any self esteem and I always feel that everyone ois different, better then me. I feel like that about adults, too, but they're easier tyo talk to and listen to, most anyway. They understand and care, they've been there, done that. Most of the kids, or teens that I know haven't tried to kill theirselves, have eating disorders, depression, court records, and a million other "issues" all at the same time.
So I go with Loren, and after going to different places, like I said the route I'm on, and she went to another one, thinking it was the same as I said, well, she asked me for my number, she's a senior in college, and she called me around 7 to see if I was still going to this play at school, I was supposed to go to a camp this weekend that I forgot about and so since I called off work for this weekend a long time ago, well, I have the weekend off now, and no camp. Good thing, too, since I've gotten a lot sicker since when mom woke me up tuesday night. It's not too bad, but I fell really tired and have to have these tissues around and I have a lot of sinus headaches. I didn't go to the playbecause when I got home, teri and Charice were there and we all wanted to go, but have decided to wait till sunday so we had time and dad could go to. She sounded dissapointed, but the only way we could have gone was to save some things to do till tomorrow and try and swueze me, teri and charice in her car, but she offered to pick me up if I needed a ride. Not me and two others, and I wasbn't going to do that to her. She asked if we could hang out some other time, I said sure. I was so happy! Then right after she called me, delores aclled me to talk, I felt special. Those two phone calls are the most I remember getting in like weeks! I mean, as in two in a day compared to the almost none any other day, unless you count me answering the phone, or if family or the counbselors call.
We went to this store to pick some things up for this fund raiser tomoorw, to support her and someones else to go into a pagent, and a lady there mentoned something about the hila hoop she had to me. She asked me how it worked, so I took it from her and tried, it spun around me maybe two times before dropping to the ground. She said I did wonderfully, got me yo demostrate how to use a lighter for charcoal to her, and was facsinated, and I justb walked around with her, and we talked. Later i bpought some candles and she saw me again, sjhe wanted to know how I liked this thing, it's like a plate, that's decorated with an angel watching over two little kids, she wanted my opinion on it because she was buying it for me. I had picked out a tall candle with Jesus on the cross for her, I could tell she'd like it, and she did. We became instant froiends, and I don't know her name even. It's like that country song, I'm married to a waitress and I don't even know her name! At the checkout lane, she gave me a pen, and her address book and asked me to please give her my name and my address and niumber. I did, and no, I wasn't worried. She was a sweet lady, and I was behind my mom who didn't mind. It's weird though!!! I felt special at school and then in that store, like these people I barely know or don't know their names, they are acting as if we're friends, and they are just very nice people. I feel like today was to help me become a little less depressed, for a wjhile at least,a nd then also not so lonely. I am happy, can't complain about anything but hoiw lousy I feel as sick. I just hope I don' get anyone else sick, if it's not allergies or anything!!
Well,, I'll get off soon, I have to hang out with Charice before she gets lonely here! Talke Care, and thanks for any prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had a comfiortable sleep, I couldn't take my pill because when my mom suggested it I was lying down, ready to crash, being sick makes you extremely tired. I woke up somewhat refreshed, but still slept on the way to school, I used my purse as a pillow. I'm glad I took the glass to cut with out!!!
As soon as I was heading into my first bell, aquatics, I decided to (I hate saying this part, it's embarrassing!!!) buy a donut and eat it. I sat down in the hallway, and I opened my bag, no purse. I panicked. I missed most of my first bell, I was in the security office. I finally realized that this girl by my locker, megan might have picked it up with her stuff, together we had a lot of stuff on the floor in the morning, so I could've mixed it up a little. She had it and returned it, I was so happy. And relieved. I trust her, and I like her a lot, she's nice and smart and unlike many rude people at school she's pretty friendly, and she talks to me, like a good aquantence, if anything.
After school I ran all of the way to my locker, which is so very far from my last class, and I got there, Megan told a girl to move out of the way, that she was in front of my locker and I had to be fast, I always almost miss the bus, but am pretty good at making it asometimes, too. Loren, the girl, she just stepped aside, smiled and said if I missed the bus she would take me home. Thanks, but I';ll make it I said. She grabed someof my two million bags and raced with me outside, handed it over, and went back insode, she missed seeing that right then the buses started driving off.
I stood in our attendance office and talked to Ms. B and she said well, how are you going to get home? I said I don't know. I saw Megan and Loren and everyone, standinga round but there was no way I'd go and ask if I could still take her up on her offer! So she sees me, walks over, and later said that she just told Megan I made it and, Megan said, oh, really? Why is she right behind you then? She walks over, and says, again, do you need a ride? and Ms. B said yes, answered for me, becasue she knows how I am around kids my age, I feel pretty shy with most, sometimes intimidated, because I don't have any self esteem and I always feel that everyone ois different, better then me. I feel like that about adults, too, but they're easier tyo talk to and listen to, most anyway. They understand and care, they've been there, done that. Most of the kids, or teens that I know haven't tried to kill theirselves, have eating disorders, depression, court records, and a million other "issues" all at the same time.
So I go with Loren, and after going to different places, like I said the route I'm on, and she went to another one, thinking it was the same as I said, well, she asked me for my number, she's a senior in college, and she called me around 7 to see if I was still going to this play at school, I was supposed to go to a camp this weekend that I forgot about and so since I called off work for this weekend a long time ago, well, I have the weekend off now, and no camp. Good thing, too, since I've gotten a lot sicker since when mom woke me up tuesday night. It's not too bad, but I fell really tired and have to have these tissues around and I have a lot of sinus headaches. I didn't go to the playbecause when I got home, teri and Charice were there and we all wanted to go, but have decided to wait till sunday so we had time and dad could go to. She sounded dissapointed, but the only way we could have gone was to save some things to do till tomorrow and try and swueze me, teri and charice in her car, but she offered to pick me up if I needed a ride. Not me and two others, and I wasbn't going to do that to her. She asked if we could hang out some other time, I said sure. I was so happy! Then right after she called me, delores aclled me to talk, I felt special. Those two phone calls are the most I remember getting in like weeks! I mean, as in two in a day compared to the almost none any other day, unless you count me answering the phone, or if family or the counbselors call.
We went to this store to pick some things up for this fund raiser tomoorw, to support her and someones else to go into a pagent, and a lady there mentoned something about the hila hoop she had to me. She asked me how it worked, so I took it from her and tried, it spun around me maybe two times before dropping to the ground. She said I did wonderfully, got me yo demostrate how to use a lighter for charcoal to her, and was facsinated, and I justb walked around with her, and we talked. Later i bpought some candles and she saw me again, sjhe wanted to know how I liked this thing, it's like a plate, that's decorated with an angel watching over two little kids, she wanted my opinion on it because she was buying it for me. I had picked out a tall candle with Jesus on the cross for her, I could tell she'd like it, and she did. We became instant froiends, and I don't know her name even. It's like that country song, I'm married to a waitress and I don't even know her name! At the checkout lane, she gave me a pen, and her address book and asked me to please give her my name and my address and niumber. I did, and no, I wasn't worried. She was a sweet lady, and I was behind my mom who didn't mind. It's weird though!!! I felt special at school and then in that store, like these people I barely know or don't know their names, they are acting as if we're friends, and they are just very nice people. I feel like today was to help me become a little less depressed, for a wjhile at least,a nd then also not so lonely. I am happy, can't complain about anything but hoiw lousy I feel as sick. I just hope I don' get anyone else sick, if it's not allergies or anything!!
Well,, I'll get off soon, I have to hang out with Charice before she gets lonely here! Talke Care, and thanks for any prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!