Today I had a really shitty day. I had one of those really long shitty days that seem to go on for forever, and it's not over yet because though it is 9:20 p.m. I have to work at my newest job from 10:30 tonight until 6: 30 a.m.
Today I decided that no matter what, I have to move out really really soon. I'm high right now so I finally feel like I am kind of mellowed out, but these days have just been rougher and rougher and I can't take these things anymore. I'n not going to kill myself over these shitty days, beause I have a lot of what I call :surprise days' but I really wouldn't mind too much if I got ran over or something. I hate to even say it, thougyh, because I'm doing everything possible in my power to start calming down, to stop letting stupid people and things piss me off to the point where I just have to cutt myself or something, and I'm working on my self improving as opposed to throwing up, doing things to help me feel like I'm in control. I'm trying to learn how to accept things in liffe, when to not worry about things, et cetera.
Wow. I'm am now even higher then I was when I wrote part of this entry last. It's Mothers Day, and I want to crawl somewhere and hide till it is over so badly.
I still can't go home anymore. Well, actually I can since I need to be there toi pack, but thats so I can get the hell out of dodge.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I think I need to start slowly wasting my life as much as I can with things I love to do like not eat, smoke, drink a little,. and then just whatever. I have to go I'm planning on staying awake through this whole high
Today I decided that no matter what, I have to move out really really soon. I'm high right now so I finally feel like I am kind of mellowed out, but these days have just been rougher and rougher and I can't take these things anymore. I'n not going to kill myself over these shitty days, beause I have a lot of what I call :surprise days' but I really wouldn't mind too much if I got ran over or something. I hate to even say it, thougyh, because I'm doing everything possible in my power to start calming down, to stop letting stupid people and things piss me off to the point where I just have to cutt myself or something, and I'm working on my self improving as opposed to throwing up, doing things to help me feel like I'm in control. I'm trying to learn how to accept things in liffe, when to not worry about things, et cetera.
Wow. I'm am now even higher then I was when I wrote part of this entry last. It's Mothers Day, and I want to crawl somewhere and hide till it is over so badly.
I still can't go home anymore. Well, actually I can since I need to be there toi pack, but thats so I can get the hell out of dodge.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I think I need to start slowly wasting my life as much as I can with things I love to do like not eat, smoke, drink a little,. and then just whatever. I have to go I'm planning on staying awake through this whole high